Poem: The Sky

I haven't updated in SOOOOOOO long... And I haven't written any poems in probably just as long =X

Anyway, I suddenly got an inspiration the other day on the way to school... After so many months ^^;;

This is especially dedicated to Manda, Clar and Chris... And any of my other friends who feel that they can connect with this poem =) Heh...

The Sky

You are the one who will always be there;
The one who quietly listens, and
The one who does not judge.

You have your days;
Sometimes clear,
. Sometimes Covered with White Clouds, or
. . Covered with Gray Clouds, or
. . . . Bothered by thunderstorms.

But you will always be there,
Behind the rain,
Behind those clouds,
Behind the passing trees,
Behind the gloomy, four walls of the room I have to face
Everyday.

I may not be able to see you all the time,
But I take comfort
In knowing that you are always still there;
Always ready to greet me.

People may change,
People may grow distant, and
People may betray others.

But you
Will always be on my side,
Will always listen,
Will never judge.

And I take comfort in your presence.

Signing off... ...

Depressed... On just the 1st week of school?

最近暗いんです。

学校で全力で頑張らなくちゃって分かっていても、今の私ではできないと思う。今怖いって気持ちで学校に行って、チームの人と仲良くできないと信じて（仲良くしても、多分考え方も違うし、楽しく過ごせないと思い込んでる）、あまり友達もなくて、嫌な気持ちなんです。

考えすぎなのかな？

だって、友達はたくさんいるよ（ただ、クラスにはいない）。

まあ、とにかく頑張ろう！！


Signing off... ...

An update

I bought a camera. (yay.)

I have one more exam. (yay.)

Japan trip is in 2 weeks. (yay.)

Signing off... ...

一人で旅したい。自分探しのたびを。

Happy (belated) Birthday to me

Yet another birthday has passed.

The big 21.

Posted a wishlist for the first time, didn't get anything from it. As expected.

Ah well.

The funny thing is the person who asked for the wishlist gave me something that was sweet and thoughtful anyway, although she didn't get it from the list ^^;;


Signing off... ...

Funny Chinese Variety Show Video

For all who know chinese...

Here's a really funny video clip my dad posted on facebook =x

They're supposed to guess some words while their partner tries to explain the word to them in english. Her english is atrocious though, and she keeps finding ways to let her partner guess without actually explaining the actual meaning in english. I kept laughing when she said "one cut forty four... is how much"... Hahaha... She actually meant "one minus forty four" - and it's such an unorthodox way of trying to tell him the words.

If you don't understand chinese I think you can probably still find these parts funny:

1.09 - 2.45: Damn funny, even if you don't understand chinese. In case you can't see the english words on the screen it says "Curse and Swear" - but actually it's something more like swearing something and then saying something bad will happen to yourself if you don't fulfil it.

2.49 - 3.42: OMG.

5.04 ~: This is the part with "One cut forty four".

There are quite a bit of taiwanese parts, but their reaction makes up for the parts we don't quite get ^^;

Signing off... ...

Driving Test....

OMG. I MIRACULOUSLY PASSED! (Okay this piece of news is about a week late but *coughs* ah well)

Signing off...

Wishlist

I have posted a wishlist on the side of my blog for fun =X Since someone was totally supporting the idea of me putting up a wishlist when I mentioned it in passing =x Heh.

Driving test next friday!

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Consequences

Everyone has to live with the consequences of their own actions...

There's no way to run.

Signing off... ...

Happy early 21st Birthday, Dear Friend

I have an important friend (whom I've not contacted in a while) who's going to celebrate her 21st birthday sometime this month... And I really want to be there.

Problem is, I don't think I'm 'there' in her heart any longer and I feel awkward if I suddenly tell her "Hey I want to go to that birthday celebration that I'm not even sure I'm invited to go for".

I finally logged in to livejournal to read up on her latest entries... And it hurt, for some reason, to know that my existence is no longer... Well. That I don't seem to cross her mind any longer. Probably my fault though, to have let us drift apart so much.

Ah well.

Signing off... ...

Rotten Day

Today's been absolutely crappy -_-" Like, totally. Since I started my first lesson... The best thing that happened today was meeting Manda along the corridor and bumping into Lynette in the foodcourt-

I've been in a 'I don't want to talk to anyone as long as I can help it' mood today... As soon as I feel a teeny bit better something else happens to throw me back to the dumps.

Hope the rotten day wears off soon- I'm totally not looking forward to tomorrow.

Signing off... ...

Poem: The Fire

Wrote a new poem quite a couple of weeks back during lecture:

The burn

of wood,

       of oil,

  of pure black charcoal

     stank, and

 suffocated,

Darkening the surroundings, and

removing the red, the blue, and

the green, leaving

nothing but the gray.

And black.

Signing off... ...

Annoyed.

Quite annoyed.

When my mum doesn't see me studying I'm "Not Working". When I'm replying an sms I get stuff like "So how's your study? You look more dreamy than anything else." Like what, I'm expected to be studying 24/7??

When I get damn pissed off I get the impression that they just want to drive me crazy.

It'd be nice not to get snide remarks once in a while. It'd be nice to be left alone. It's not easy being in Uni.

2 more papers.

Signing off... ...

Understanding 'Impossible'

Took this off one of Karen's shared items.

Signing off... ...

Hm.

Sometimes when I talk to people who are just very crude or constantly make jokes about other people for no reason or are just generally cruel and inconsiderate, I just lose the desire to talk to the person- Even if I was bursting with things to tell just a couple of seconds before.

Using vulgarities or degrading people when you're really angry for a valid reason is acceptable, but when you just do it 'for fun', or just 'in passing', I just... Can't stand it. For some reason. Don't know if it's weird.

But I guess that's the reason why my close/good friends are who they are- ^^

Manda reminded me about my blog name a while back.. But I'm still thinking of a new title.

Signing off... ...

Glad.

Exam Fever

Exams start tomorrow.

9 a.m.

... ...

Shit.

Signing off... ...

Gone

I feel trapped.

All around.

Work is now my worry, my problem, and yet, my refuge.

I want to break free.

Signing off... ...

I need an outlet

Live by your words

A quote from John Fitzgerald Kennedy:

As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.

So true.

Empty words mean nothing. Absolutely nothing. If you mean it, do it. Only then can the true meaning be conveyed. If you cannot live by it, don't even mention it. Don't promise anything. That will only show how insincere you are.

Signing off... ...

Lost

It's been way long since I last updated >_< Sorry about that!! *brushes away some cobwebs*

School: School has started, and has been one hell of a ride. I've got a load of stuff, with hardly anyone to bitch about it to. I just wanna block everyone out of my life sometimes and reconnect myself with the world once this is all over.

I won't say I'm stressed... But I'm just at a point when it'd be great if I could run away. Not from work, but from everything else, so that I can do my work.

I'm behind schedule in my practicals, don't know what I'm supposed to study for my 2 midterm tests this week, have a load of tutorials that I'm struggling to understand... The list goes on.

Wish me luck. This week's gonna be hell.

Signing off... ...

Tired.....

Looks like this Saturday's gonna be an extremely tiring day for me again...

I got sick for the umpteenth time this year. Don't really feel like pushing myself this time.


Signing off... ...
Hope I get well soon...

Personality Quiz

Personality Quiz: I just took this personality test that was found on my brother's and Christine's blog... I thought the results kinda hit home... But >_< Not sure...

"Think of themselves as gentle, conscientious, and mature": I can assure you I didn't say that in the test @.@ Not like that anyway >_< Wahhhz...

If you want to try it out, click here.

In case you're interested, my results are below:

Results

Your answers suggest you are a Nurturer

The four aspects that make up this personality type are:

Summary of Nurturers

• Care for the important people in their lives
• Strive for harmony and avoid confrontation
• Think of themselves as gentle, conscientious, and mature
• May have trouble making decisions that could hurt others

More about Nurturers

Nurturers are quiet people who believe in order and diligently look after the people they care about. They focus on the needs of others and establish routines to help them meet their commitments.

Nurturers are the most likely group to say they prefer a job where the same thing happens every day, according to a UK survey.

Nurturers remember details that are important to them, such as their friends' birthdays and anniversaries. People with this personality type value others' feelings and may challenge behaviour they think is insensitive.

In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Nurturers may feel bitter and seek support by complaining to their colleagues. Under extreme stress, Nurturers may become preoccupied with the worst possible outcome and believe that they are heading for disaster.

Because they are so caring and loyal, Nurturers run the risk of being taken advantage of.

Nurturer Careers

Nurturers are often drawn to jobs that allow them to help others.

It's important to remember that no survey can predict personality type with 100 percent accuracy. Experts say that we should use personality type to better understand ourselves and others, but shouldn't feel restricted by our results.