No one...

P-U-N-C-T-U-A-L-I-T-Y :: Ever heard of it?

No time: Argh. Is it just me? Or does everyone not have the time to listen to me anymore? 3 examples in a day-- Either someone just plain doesn't have the time to listen, interrupts me as I'm about to speak and doesn't bother to concern himself (I shall just use 'he' generally so that I do not disclose who I'm referring to) with me after he finishes, or puts down the phone on me just as I'm about to say something. And that's just today. For the last few days, surprising or not, it's been my family I've been talking to. And it sucks because there are _so_ many things I can't talk about.

I can't scream about something extremely cute and gay I see on TV, and I can't share my day with a friend. It's pissing, really. When I don't want to go out, I am asked to too often-- by the same person. When I want to go out with someone or just want the person to come over to my house to hang out, we can't. And there's a charity fair I really really _REALLY_ want to go to on the 6th of may at the ENV building... and there's no one to go with. I'm finally gonna work for 3 days and it might just clash with the charity fair -- which I am only informed of after I think I can ask someone to go with me. Sigh.

Are you reading this? And you know something? I think hardly anyone reads my blog anymore. Someone told me to read his blog (again gender used generally) repeatedly, and I doubt that person actually read mine. If you want to know, yes, I went to read his. It'd be mean not to.

Blooging: It's a place to keep in touch with friends and update them on your life -- and a place to express your thoughts. Not what they say on the bloody TV.

Complaint blog? Gosh, I'm using my blog to complain more than anything else now, huh. Damn.

No one's perfect.

Signing off... ...

Tongue twister and up and down

Peter Piper picked a pack of pickled pepper.
A pack of picked pepper Peter Piper picked.
If Peter Piper picked a pack of pickled pepper,
Where's the pack of pickled pepper Peter Piper picked?

~Bunny rabbits don't hibernate. And that includes little bunny rabbits and mummy bunny rabbits.
~"Peter Piper" not "Peter Pepper".

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Oh gosh, I've gone mad, haven't I. Ah, I feel as if I'm stealing 'manda's way of blogging... Argh. I'm just lazy to go through all the nitty gritty details. Ah well.

Up and down
Up and down
Breathless.

Up and down
Up and down
Pain.

Up and down
Up and down.

Acceptance.


Signing off... ...

Problems galore

Just when he thinks its over
even before he gets to take a breath...
Another hits.

Like a tsunami
Wave
after Wave
after Wave
Each leaving him more tired than the last.

And then
All Hell Breaks Loose.


Signing off... ...

OG outing

Okay, sorry. I have screamed enough. Now time for me to go on to happier things. ^^

Went out: Today I went out with Amanda-- ^^ We talked, crapped, and well, went searching for a dolphin soft toy. After running around a lot of places, sampled ice-cream (mine was lychee and her's was strawberry), sampled chicken balls, we fianlly found a place which sold dolphins at Bugis. Then there was a problem.

Dress, skirt or dolphin?: Amanda saw a skirt at Mango (which was $60), and a dress at one of the shops at bugis (which was $28). Then there was also the dolphin. The smaller one was $36 i think, and the large one $62. We debated, and decided that she'd take the dress. When she opened her wallet though, she noticed that she only had $14!! And she fell into depression. We called Heri to ask him to lend her money, but then after arguing with herself, she deluded herself into thinking that she didn't want the dress anymore because she couldn't afford it. Well.

OG OUTING!!: We had an OG outing yesterday to celebrate PL and Jeff's b'day. We went to Sakae sushi, and well, the downside was that at first, we had 11 people going. Then it went down to 9, and then 8. 5 of us went into Sakae first, and started on the sushi buffet. After quite some time, the 3 others came and then they didn't dare to come in cause they didn't have enough money for the buffet. So I informed the supervisor and they seperated their table from ours.

Stealing food?: Hence, JL, Uncle and PL ate ala-carte instead. They were very reluctant in buying sushi plates, and only bought 2 plates of sushi, and Uncle bought a drink (which he said he'd frame up cause it cost a bomb). After some time, they got hungry, so Kevin, who was sitting next to me and nearest to the other table, placed a plate of sushi near the edge of table. Then, Jing Lun, with his fast-moving hands, took a sushi and popped it into his mouth within a blink of an eye. Kevin was actively giving them chances, but since Jing Lun was the nearest, I think he stole the most.. ^^;;

Then Uncle saw something he really wanted to eat, and he stood up, bent over his table and took one piece from out table. With such large actions, someone would have noticed. And notice someone did. Luckily, it wasn't the really fussy waitress nor the supervisor. She (thank heavens) turned a blind eye to it. I started getting cold feet, so the next time they wanted to steal food, I left the place to go to the toilet. When I came back, however, I was quite surprised to see that they hadn't taken anything. Heh.

Summary of dinner: I ate the most, I think, definitely more than 10, and perhaps reaching 20 plates. ^^;; Kevin wanted to make full use of the service and kept ordering plates from the waitresses instead. Raymund dropped a piece of crabmeat on the floor, and Wanxin kept changing seats. All in all it was fun.

NEOPRINT!!: After dinner, we went down to Dhoby Ghaut to take neoprint! Uncle kept trying to cover the camera with his hand, and I was desperately trying to squeeze myself into the photo. The whole photo-taking process turned into chaos. But the chaos was fun. ^^ OG chaos is good chaos. Heh. Gosh, am I even making sense?

Post-neoprint: Well, firstly, Kevin and Jing Lun changed bags, and agreed to do so for approximately 2 weeks. Heh. ^^ It was really funny. After some time, I noticed someone (was it Uncle or PL?) holding something in his hand. I went up to him and looked at it. "That looks nice. Where did you get it from?" He looked up. "You want? Which one do you want? Take your pick." At that, he turned and faced towards the ceiling. I followed his line of sight and hen noticed this whole row of decorations along the edge of the neoprint area. There were strings of decorations hanging down.

Jing Lun heard, and lifted his hand to tug slightly at it, causing an entire string of decorations to drop down!! Straight after he realised what happened, he picked it up and ran to catch up with us. Lol!! At that time, most of the OG had walked off towards the MRT, leaving him staring at the decorations. As for me, Jing Lun gave me one part of the string to bring home. Hahaha!! It was really REALLY fun. =)=)

OG 26, I LOVE YOU ALL!! ^^


Signing off... ...

Pissed

Okay, back to rambling. Pardon me, I. Am. Pissed. So I shall ramble. Thank you.

OG business: Don't misunderstand, I still love my OG. My closer friends (not necessarily in OG) will know that there's this one person who irritates me a lot, but that's not the point. Anyway, no offence to anyone in my OG, kay?

Just who asked for it?: Firstly, I'm always ALWAYS the one organising the outings and collecting the money and doing EVERYTHING (even though I may not be the one who SUGGESTED or INITIATED it) I'm bloody freaking broke right now with no job and absolutely no income, yet I'm the one who ends up paying for all the stuff first. Example. The BBQ. People owe me money. We go for dinner. Must buy presents. We buy presents. Other person pays for one present first. People pay me back for BBQ. People owe us money for presents. I give the other person back all the money she spent on the present. I am broke. I owe my mum money. Pissing, ain't it? Doesn't seem to make much sense.

Really, if you want to initiate an outing, you should be the one looking for the place OR AT LEAST calling to reserve the seats, OR calling the people in the OG OR going online to ask everyone for their opinion OR fixing a BLOODY DATE TO GO RIGHT??!! Then why is it I did everything? Without the person (whom I shall call ABC for now) lifting a bloody finger to help? Unles of course, you call bugging me practically everyday to see if I've called up all the OG people _help_.

Or am I just being over-sensitive? My computer is not helping matters right now. I'm only getting more pissed because it's lagging like mad. I time a whole string of sentences and it only shows them on the screen after approximately 5 to 10 seconds. Bloody. Pissed.

Argh. Yes, I know, my previous post applies to me too, but I just kinda blew up cause I'm bloody broke and I have no money to go out tomorrow and I've been trying like mad to find a job but to no avail. I don't get no allowance and no bloody income.

Complaints... And more complaints. Bloody hypocrite, that's what I am. I hate it when I do that. Just needed to find a place to rant it all out.


Signing off... ...

Just do it.

Sometimes we wonder why we do certain things...
"I only get hurt from doing these things"
"Why can't someone else do it?
"Why's it always me?"
Excuses, excuses...

Think about it, really.
If you didn't do what you did, would you really be happy?
Is that how you want yourself to be?
If it is, I have nothing to say.

I may get hurt,
but I won't do it any other way.
I may cry,
but I won't regret my actions.


Signing off... ...

Monday blues...

Cheated.
Disappointment. Horror.
A heavy heart.
From 5 to barely 3 an hour?
Hunger...
I want my lunch.

Everyone's gone
No one to talk to
Lingering hope
to make a new friend...
Disappointment.
No one to talk to...

Rushing home
Barely time for myself
"I'm back"
Walk.
"So how?"
Walk.
"I don't know."
SLAM!
tears.
waterfall.

"Dinnertime!"
"Yes, coming!"
Turn off the tap.
Rush.
Study for kanji test?
No, blog.
No time.
Class at 7.15...
Test. Homework...
Rush again.

Monday blues...


I'm really in a rush. Very haphazard entry... Exactly what I'm feeling. Damnit. It's 7. I'll be late.



Signing off... ...

Cosplay Ramble

Don't mind me... This entire entry is about cosplay...

Street Festival 2005: Okay, so there's a street fest on 4th June... Argh. Might not join though... They made such a big fuss over everything... I mean, cosplayers under 21 have to get their PARENT'S CONSENT??? What the heck...?? I'm so flattered that they treat us like primary school kids, thank you. Argh. Thank goodness, even if I was cosplaying, I wouldn't join the competition... Silly rules. It's not as if we're putting our life on the line when we join the competition... And past winners aren't allowed to join too, you know. In a matter of a few years, all the good cosplayers won't be allowed to join. Argh. What is _wrong_ with them. And the co-ordinators don't seem very friendly either... I was thinking of cosplaying actually, even though it's usually meant more for J-rockers (but since they so generously decided to let anime cosplayers in...) but Skye needs her wig for that event too, so that means that I can't do Howl... and I want to do Yukino for CosFest... So unless I miraculously come up with some idea on what to do that I can rush by then, I don't think I'll join... Ah well.

CosFest 2005: Now _this_ is what I'm looking forward to. I just hope that the bands won't be too loud... ^^;; I remember the year before, when the band started playing, everyone started evacuating. Heheh... But it was quite fun... ^^;; I'm working in order to get my Yukino done in time for this cosplay event. Which means I have to find another event to wear my Howl costume to... Hm. But oh darn... my shirt is not accurate. If I wear it to an event, won't it be obvious? Considering that I know there are others who want to do Howl's Moving castle too? Ahhhh!! Darn. It's time I started updating myself with the latest anime/manga... I'm getting backdated.


Signing off... ...

=I Diary for 2day

Today everything didn't exactly go as planned...

Work: Okay, so I made myself useful and tried calling up different places... Popular doesn't want me, so I tried out clothes shops instead. All of em didn't need any more helpers. Argh. Oh man... I soo wanted to work someplace near town... I need the bloody money damn it. Sigh... But seeing that I got lots of stuff to do too... *shrugs*

Rain: After all the failed attempts, I decided that it would do me some good to trudge down to the library. So I went to shower, and when I came out, it started raining. So I had to stay home and wait till it stopped raining... But well, I like the rain, and it sure made the day much cooler, so I didn't exactly have much cause to complain.

Library: Yup, I finally went down to the Library @ Orchard, and I had a headache... I was hoping there would be tables, but *cough* Apparently not. I guess it's nothing like a school library... And the books it had... Hm. Let's just say that I thought that they had better standards... I was there for barely and hour and I got slightly hungry, so I left. Pathetic, huh. If only someplace like the Hogwarts library existed... In Singapore. Sigh. Ah well.

Other than the fact that nothing much went according to plan today, I guess it was quite okay... =) Considering that I actually did some things (made myself useful) and well, it was serene. I enjoyed the walk to Taka and back. =)


Signing off... ...

Hisashiburi...

Okay, so I had initially wanted to blog the moment I got home last night... My hands were just ITCHING to get on the computer... but my brother was doing something with the comp... fixing some stuff I think... so I couldn't. Wah. I so wanted to record the elation I had felt, but since I was unable to, I shall try to do so now. ^-^;;

Japanese Class: Okay, so yesterday night was my first lesson for my JLPT 1 preparation class. I had a new teacher (Abo- sensei) and well, she speaks pretty slow. Much slower than my current teacher (Kanai sensei) at least, but then again, she's the fastest speaker in the school ^^;; Anyway, when I signed my name on the attendence list, I noticed a name I hadn't seen in ages - and the first words that left my mouth were "Nicole's here??" The receptionist looked up at me and went "She's actually in the Saturday class" but I barely even acknowledged it, and practically ran to my classroom, almost banging into Kanai sensei in the process.

When I finally got to my classroom, I saw her sitting at the second row, and quickly went to sit next to her. Both of us were grinning like idiots, and I must say it was the best I've felt in class for ages. The great times I had when we were in the same class went through my mind, and it had seemed sooo long... Well, technically it was. A year and a half I should think. The class was boring to say the least, but it was so much more bearable with Nicole. I guess the only turn-off was the amount of notes and homework the teacher bestowed upon us... Sigh. It just reminded me of how important this exam will be, especially with how expensive this particular preparation class is compared to the normal classes... Practically twice the price if I remember correctly.

Anyway, Nicole was drawing stuff on her paper, and I couldn't help chuckling-- alright, giggling (gosh, I hate that word) -- whenever I turned my head and saw her drawings. Once or twice I even added stuff to it, like old times. I went home that night grinning from ear to ear.

Work: No, no, I haven't gotten a job yet, damn it. I need it, I know I do, since I need the money... but I just haven't gotten down to finding one. It's so damn pissing.


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