Happy early 21st Birthday, Dear Friend

I have an important friend (whom I've not contacted in a while) who's going to celebrate her 21st birthday sometime this month... And I really want to be there.

Problem is, I don't think I'm 'there' in her heart any longer and I feel awkward if I suddenly tell her "Hey I want to go to that birthday celebration that I'm not even sure I'm invited to go for".

I finally logged in to livejournal to read up on her latest entries... And it hurt, for some reason, to know that my existence is no longer... Well. That I don't seem to cross her mind any longer. Probably my fault though, to have let us drift apart so much.

Ah well.

Signing off... ...

Rotten Day

Today's been absolutely crappy -_-" Like, totally. Since I started my first lesson... The best thing that happened today was meeting Manda along the corridor and bumping into Lynette in the foodcourt-

I've been in a 'I don't want to talk to anyone as long as I can help it' mood today... As soon as I feel a teeny bit better something else happens to throw me back to the dumps.

Hope the rotten day wears off soon- I'm totally not looking forward to tomorrow.

Signing off... ...

Poem: The Fire

Wrote a new poem quite a couple of weeks back during lecture:

The burn

of wood,

       of oil,

  of pure black charcoal

     stank, and

 suffocated,

Darkening the surroundings, and

removing the red, the blue, and

the green, leaving

nothing but the gray.

And black.

Signing off... ...