Tuesday 30 May 2006

Screwed. The worst ever.

Some test thing: Okay... I did this funny test thingy on my3q.com on what sort of person i am... and I got this!:

Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest... Not a person who takes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to nfriends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who nreally get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

Oh yes, if you have the time do help me do a short survey for teenagers at http://www.my3q.com/home2/110/cutieangel89/ELIT_survey.phtml-- >_<

Today's presentaion & report: Okay, I've never felt like I let myself down this much before in my entire life...... I screwed up the presentation, I screwed up the report. Someone asked me "what happened" and I actually thought about it. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Nothing happened, and that's exactly why we failed so miserably. You look at us and the first thing you think is "gosh, not another of those stupid presentations... Can they just hurry up?" You look at the group after us, and you'll think "OMG. How on earth...... How did they...? What wonderful..." And then you'll just forget what you're saying in your awe and just shut up.

Yes, see the difference? Our group was the worst in the class. And you know what? This isn't the first time. I screwed up the first report for another subject too. How wonderful, Angeline. How wonderful. So much for wanting to get good results. Keep this up and you'll be lucky just scraping it through. Two more reports for 2 subjects...

Programming: Yes, the only way I can redeem myself. But really, do I really wanna just see _ONE_ miserable A on my report card and F for the rest of it? No way, man. No way.


Signing off... ...
Plummeting back into reality......

Tuesday 23 May 2006

Test and SMIT scholarship

Some random quiz I did :
Take this test at Tickle


The emoticon that represents you best is the Winking Face


Which Emoticon Are You?

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Alienating the girls? NO!!: Okay, I've tried hanging around with the girls in my class (like the entire group of them) for some time and I realise why I always end up separated from them anyway... It's like, they always split from the rest of the class, and like... I just can't bring myself to stay outside the class and stroll in late on purpose >_< Like err, what happened to punctuality?? Sigh, ah well. But I must say, they're all still really nice people~ Still love talking to them and all~ But it sucks that because of that I'm getting nicknames from club. And I can't help it if one of my closer friends happens to be a guy!! HELLO!!! I had Chelsea in the past and like the entire club knew about her. -_-" gahh. Why couldn't they have said that I was going out with Chelsea?? Discrimination, that's what it is. Ah well.

Classmates: Yesh, there are some people in my class that are well... like... I dunno... Like 'manda sometimes... Sometimes they're just so sweet and cute that I feel like cuddling them and going 'aww!' Or maybe that's just because they helped out when I was getting rather pissed and irritated with some people. ^^;; If it weren't for them, I'd have broken down and

SMIT Scholarship thingy: Okay, I err, don't know how it happened, but I got it ^^;; First things first, the first thing I thought when I heard the news was 'What? Why isn't it ________ or ________ or sth?' Didn't really feel like I deserved it since the others were like really really nice and incredible people.... I really gave up all hope before I even went in for the interview... But I guess it might have been because of that that I managed to talk to the directors normally and all. Or it could have been because of my CCA points (from what I heard from inside news)

Met a semi-new nice person there-- Clarence (the senior. Semi-new cause I heard about him from 2 clubmates before). Jon, Clarence & Edwin were really great company before and after the interview... =D Yepz, I know this is gonna sound extremely cheesy, but I still wanna thank some people for their encouragement and stuff and telling me to go for it anyway even though I had half the mind to walk out of it... Let's see now... 'Manda, Jon, Clarence (the senior) and Clarence (the lecturer). =) Yepz. Thanks a mil guys!


Signing off... ...

Tuesday 2 May 2006

The Identical Windows, patterns now disturbed

Passing
from window to window,
Multiple images swarm in sight.

Symmetrical patterns
Embedded in glass,
the first, no diferent from the next.

Each detail, by
insignificant detail
manufactured exquisitely,
Identically.

The moth rests,
against the cool glass,
a ripple now created
in the dark, quiet waters.

It grows dazed, and
flutters around restlessly
to find a place to stop,
to belong.

Futile efforts ensue
second after second,
minute after minute,
hour after hour,
Unwanted.

Two dissimilar entities,
Encapsulate an attempt to connect, as
Strong currents
now run underwater.
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^^;; Heyz~ I know some people are gonna say that my 'poem' entries are always angsty... but this time it's different!! This time, it's a fight going on! Heheh... This poem is somewhat related to some of my entries a week ago, if I'm not wrong. Anywayz, comments will be much appreciated!

Schoolwork: Gosh I've been slacking for ages now... It's time I pulled myself back together... Gotta stop playing so much... I've gotta buck up. >_<


Signing off... ...