Distraction galore

Okay, I wasn't supposed to blog, I really wasn't. Much less about this nonsensical... Nonsense. But the urge just came on... so...

Good mood?: Came across a lot of stupid people today that would have gotten me kinda irritated usually... but I just laughed internally. Which is... WEIRD. I'm feeling extremely disturbed about it all...

Distracted: As you can see, that's mainly the reason why I'm here blogging and not studying when I have an exam tomorrow which I've not even studied one chapter of!! I've been at the same chapter since I came back home today... I'm. So. Screwed.

Embarassment: Okay, is it possible to spontaneously combust from embarassment? =S Oddly enough, I seem to think that possible... >_<

Okay, I'm not supposed to be blogging... So I shall go back to studying.


Signing off... ...
Panicking.

KHK and brain switched off

KHK: Very, extremely entertaining~ ^^ Skye was like so nervous in the beginning!! =S I was like down (or up) there thinking to myself, "Come on Skye, you can do it. I know you can. Stop freaking out...!" Turned out alright. ^^;; I remember that happening before too. Somehow or another.

Something that would have got me on low spirits just didn't penetrate through today... That is, I met a lot of familiar faces and people I know, and I'm sure they know me too...? But none talked to me, save for Senti. And my 'imouto'. Ah well.

Brainless: Okay, I can officially say that my head has gone on holiday. -_-" And to think that the tests are just 2 days away... Gosh. Need to finish studying...

Random stuff: Yes, I know I've never posted a video... but I thought this was rather cool. Like... wow. It'd be fun running around a country like that:

I am out of time so I shall end here.


Signing off... ...
Head rest.

World Cup, and reminiscing

Rambling post...

Wasted time: Okay, I was supposed to be studying and finishing my security module... And I ended up digging up past stuff and looking through them till like about 4+. Found something that was given to me in P6 during my birthday, and a letter together with it. The person made it clear that I pissed her off all the time, but she didn't not like me. The paper was falling apart. Made me think back.

They probably don't know this, but no matter how they didn't like me in the beginning, we managed to become friends after some time, and they were the ones who broke my irritating outside... The entire Anime group.... And I'm extremely grateful for that. They were, what, the first few true friends I really made in primary school. Yes, extremely pathetic, I know, having only made proper friends in P5/P6. They're one bunch I'll never forget.

Tarot cards: Okay, spent some time playing with my tarot cards this afternoon... And just now. My cards seem to be teasing me or something... Like when I asked a question, thinking that I already know the answer, but I just want to ask anyway, it gave me replies that indirectly meant "If you know it already why ask?" 3 times in a row -_-" Geez. Weird things happen when I'm supposed to be studying. This time, I've gotten back on my tarot card craze.

KHK tmr: Kouhaku (red-white song battle) tomorrow!! Yes, it'll be my first time going after like what, 4 years? =S Will be dragging someone with me and supporting Skye! This is going to be so fun.

Met Momo: Yes, gosh, missed her... Although I was only with her for slightly over an hour, it was nice. Catching up and all that. And I finally stepped into a neoprint shop again after what, a year? =D Sharing flowers with her for Skye even though she can't make it... ^^;;

Soccer craze: Apparently Momo follows some matches too- Those with the Japan team, of course. She told me about stuff and it felt so normal to be talking to her about soccer even though I don't follow it. It's probably cause she really was supporting a team. We talked about stuff and agreed on one thing: It's really sad how many Singaporeans don't actually support the teams... but follow the World Cup for betting.

I feel that strongly in school. Like everyone around me seems to be betting on the matches... And I only hear a rare few who really support a particular team. Zero-people seem to be talking about the action or about support. All I've been hearing is results, results, results, and "Stupid la, if only they made one more goal!". If my close friends say that I think I can safely infer that it was a close match between their favourite team and another, but since it's not... they mean, "Darn, I betted 3-1 and they scored 2-1." -_-" Riight. Ah well. It's extremely sad, though... So much for the World Cup.


Signing off... ...

Mirror half and talk with manda & Sugino

I look into the eyes in the mirror
Filled with fear.
Its usual cheer
Devoured by his other half.

The gaze
Burns me
And I look away

To soothe the flames
That erupted in my head.

I feel the pain,
I feel the hesitance,
I feel the hope.

Yet none of this
Is mine.

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The 'poem': Just so you know, that doesn't reflect my current situation ^^;; Don't ask why I suddenly put that up, I don't know >_<

Stuff: Just had a nice talk with 'manda, and everything feels so much better now =) Screw everything. I'll take things one step at a time.

Talk with my doc: A trip to the doctor's a few days ago ended as some kind of sharing session. My world is protected now, she said. When I go out into the 'real' world, I may suffer from shock or something of the like, and when that happens, I can go look for her. Hm. Protected, yes.

I know this is utterly different from what she meant, but I think I'm really really lucky to have my current great friends and... well, stuff. It's just really sweet when I feel the protectiveness radiating off sometimes.

Fathers' Day: I think I can safely say that none of you here are fathers, but Happy Fathers' Day all the same. ^^

What?: Okay, I actually had loads to say, but everything's staying in my mind as overlapping emotions and random words that refuse to take form, so... I shall just leave this as that.



Signing off... ...
Over-blogging

Rationality and Computron

Rationality: Screw what I said a few days ago. Rationality has been thrown out the window, or ignored. -_-"

Turbo: Everything seems to have been going in turbo-mode the past few weeks... and it seems so long although it's only been such a short time. Like, too many things have happened. That is, only in certain aspects. I look at my assignments and it's different though. In that case everything seems to have zoomed by like a rocket. Everything's still untouched. I. NEED. To. Start. Concentrating.

Yes, 'manda, I know I ought to be slapped.

Computron: Yepz, second round and finals today. It was extremely fun to see the finalists battle it out. The secondary school kids were like fighting a war, the JC guys were better, and more coherent, and the tertiary people were... well. Amusing and like... Whoa. Glad to say the 'whoa' came from my buddy-classmate's group (which got first), and the SIM group. Err, amusing group was also from SP though ^^ That group went in the third round of the finals with err, 7(?) points and and came out with 0. On the dot. And there we were, worrying that they would emerge with negative points ^^;;

But even though they were amusing and cute, I still have to say that they weren't as silly as we thought, considering that they understood most of the questions that I went 'what?' at. Like, what's a binary tree with root 1? Huh?? Binary tree? All I could think of was a tree drawn with 1s and 0s. -_-" They got the answer half right, but points weren't awarded unless you get the full answer, so... Ah well.

On the contrary: The first round for the secondary school kids was like... super stupid. E.g.

What's a Desktop?
a) The display area
b) The area around the monitor

Erm, I forgot options c and d cause I think I was too busy laughing ^^;; And... Which of the following has the most space? RAM, floppy disk, CD, DVD, hard drive? Like... DUH I'm sure we've got a floppy disk in gigabytes >_<

Okay, enough rambling for today.


Signing off... ...

Silent Hill and Boat Quay

Fishes: Okay, like err, I don't believe I've 'fish'ed this many times in 2 days before... Fished at least a million times yesterday because of my onslaught of gastric, and another million times today when I sent an sms to the subject of a message instead of the intended recipient. Gosh, _that_ was embarassing. -_-" Fished my entire way home after that.

Silent Hill plot: Okay, went to watch the movie, but err, the grossly pictures grossed me out. Let's just say 20 minutes into the movie I suddenly remembered why I don't watch horror movies. My asthma. Like, gosh, how can one forget about something like that??? -_-" Dumb people do that, apparently. But it didn't turn out bad. It was quite sad, but alright. Not really that shocking, like the kind that has stuff jumping out at you. This had a bit more of a dumb plot.

Fav character: Oh, and the character I liked died. -_-" Happens all the time doesn't it. Oh, thank you so much. For goodness sake, she was like, intelligent and sweet! Why do they _always_ have to kill those nice characters off? Still think that she and the main character would look really cute together, but perhaps that's just me. But she is really cool. Too good for the main character actually. She actually died for the main character!! And her famous line, though filled with a bit of vulgarity, sounded really cute coming from her =P

Main character: But the main character of the show was like ultra dumb. The dumbest person I have ever seen actually. If I could I would have thrown something at her and made sure I aimed for her head. HELLO like there's supposed to be _something_ in that skull of yours!! What did you do to it, throw it out the window before the movie started?? -_-" Gosh.

Others: Yeah, well, other stuff happened today too, but I shan't blog about those. Let's just say Boat Quay looks rather nice when the lights come on and it's a really good place to talk. And hear soccer fans screaming their lungs out.


Signing off... ...

ECP and Fog's cleared

East Coast Park: Yepz, went to ECP to roller blade with Clarence... Like, yeah! The last time I went was with Deone, before Poly started. As usual, it took me a short while before I remembered how to blade, but it came faster than usual ^^;; 'Twas Clarence's first time blading, so we were like stumbling together in the beginning when I was still trying to remember how to blade... Then he just got better and better. ^_^ So anyway, it went like really well, and I used my cam to take lots of photos... The videos, for some reason or another, just doesn't work on my com though. -_-"

Fish and co: Ate there for the first time that day... Okay, if your jaw has just dropped, please pick it back up, I'm sure it's unbecoming. >_< Yep, ex, as I thought. But the fish was good- Guess that's why they're called 'Fish and co' ^^;; *coughs* Although I think I kept stepping on Clarence's toe =s Like, halfway through a conversation he suddenly said, "that's my toe". Gosh, and there I was happily tapping my foot against what I thought was the ground =S Wah.

Oh, and they had these weird gunnysack things hanging from the ceilings that I only noticed after I finished eating, and it was so tempting to just stand up and squeeze the gunnysacks to see what was in it. Paper? Cotton wool? Or perhaps their rubbish? Hm. It'll have to remain a mystery until I get the chance to kidnap one or something.

Skye and 'man: The fog has cleared, like finally!! Skye, thanks for listening to me =) I get what you mean, and it's processed now (not that you'll see this), and 'man? I'm glad you're back =D

Rationality: Okay, I don't know whether or not I hate my sense of rationality. Sure, there are times when it's just thrown out the window. But if I try hard enough, it comes back in about 2 days or so -_-" It's supposed to be good right? But I can't help feeling somewhat... I dunno, regretful about it all. Cause once it takes control... I don't know, sometimes it feels more like the 'shunning' part of me returns. Everything turns numb. And I don't exactly enjoy being numb.


Signing off... ...

Rose and air-con

Random post.
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The air-con switches itself on,
And I feel the cold air rush in,
Its icy-cold wings spreading themselves around me.

The switch is un-locatable,
And my limbs s l o w l y
Start to freeze.

"Are you alright?"
I hear a voice-
And yet the damned smile spreads and I nod.

No one notices,
Or even feels the cold,
And yet
I continue to freeze,
The ice-cold seeping into my bones.

I hope fervently
for the warmth they feel to spread
to my numbing limbs,
though I know it futile.

As the machine runs on,
Past efforts to recover
Slip past my conscience.
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Rose: Heheh... someone showed me this link to a video and a guide on how to create paper roses... If any of you guys are interested, the link's http://www.wikihow.com/Fold-a-Paper-Rose and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BZnhMl85dq4. After I created it I took some photos and looked at them... One particular photo reminded me of the love rhombus for some odd reason... So I just took the photo and splashed one line on ^^;; Yepz, here it is, for the love rhombus (though probably only 1 of you guys will see it here):




Missing you guys.

Signing off... ...

Roller Coaster and Computron

Let me first warn you this: I'm not in the right train of mind, utter random nonsense up ahead so... read on at your own risk!

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Up and up and up... and
Whoooooosssh down with a sharp right turn.

Up and down, up and down,
another few more unexpected turns and
a 360-degree flip.

Exhiliration mixes with increasing nausea
As the ride goes on,
and yet
I refuse to get off it.

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???: Okay, err... I'm not very sure what I just wrote myself. Does it make sense?

Craziness: I'm crazy. I'm on my way to madness, I'm sure of that. "I've gotta be outta my mind" - that's the line that has been repeating itself over and over and over in my head everyday, every hour. I've never heard something repeat itself so many times before. Gah. Maybe I _am_ going crazy.

Tired: Okay, perhaps all this madness is coming from my lack of sleep, I have no idea. I've been sleeping at 3 for the past 3 days or so (okay, I know some of you do too, but I have never done that >_<) and everyone knows what happens when I get tired. I do stupid stuff. Or I get a migraine. This time, it's both. But someone has been accompanying me (virtually) the past few days and it's helped a lot in keeping me awake... So I guess it ain't that bad. ^^;;

Computron: Yep, that's the name of the competition I went for today, and will be going for again next week. The 1st round(which was today) had us creating little bots that will transfer codes to the opponent's bots when we bang into them. The aim is to eliminate them.

It was really funny cause my team's bots kept killing themselves and well. Keep getting deactivated and all for no reason. And when we tested it against the sample one in the computer, we got wiped out in a matter of a few seconds. Ah well. Thankfully, we managed to (or seem to have) improve it a little in the last 5 to 10 minutes when one of my team members suddenly suggested something. Other than the fact that the later version had my main bot turning around in circles like some mad magnetic compass I guess it worked better than the previous one ^^;;

But it was fun. =^^=

SP-dominated: Oh, and did I mention? Like 7 groups were from SP... When my group came into the room to get seated we were like the 5th SP group... The guy was like "Huh?? SP again?" and the secondary school/JC team behind us went "wah lao eh". I couldn't stop myself from laughing. Indeed, when I looked around, the entire back half of the computer lab was from our school, our faculty. Heh. Now _that_ is domination.


Signing off... ...
(????????)
I'm happy.

Guitar strings and overdose

Too much of a good thing: This is just like having an overdose - like eating the same favourite food of yours every day, for every meal. I know this is not good, and yet I'm doing it. I can foresee the time when I will be sick of it for a short period of time before it comes back again, and I don't want it to happen. Guess I'll just have to monitor my intake... Or hope it's like chicken rice. At least I won't get sick of _that_.

And in case you haven't realised... I wasn't talking about food.

The indestructable balance...: Okay, I've just found someone who noticed it too! But that person uses some other words to describe it. Used to have it in my MSN nick like for the whole of last year or something? I can't remember... But recently, it hasn't been making itself known to me, and that is... scary. Extremely so. Or maybe my happy things are just cancelling the unhappy ones? I have no idea.

CAMERA: YES YES YES!!! I've got a camera now!!! As in, again! No, my dead one hasn't revived itself, but it's as-good-as, or even better!!! Love my new cam, and I just can't WAIT to use it this Friday and Monday and whenever else.... *rubs hands in glee* This is going to be so much fun.

Randomness: Okay, I just saw something in Skye's blog that I couldn't help laughing at... Heheh... "Apparently you dun pluck a guitar string...you stroke it....XD sounds bad doesn't it". *laughs* I guess I do learn something new everyday. I never knew that despite listening to a brother play one for god-knows-how-many-years. Ah well.


Signing off... ...

Outing with clarence and me, lucky.

Today: Yepz, went out today to watch 'Over the hedge' with Clarence (the senior). We got backed out on by 3 people... Then kept bumping into people we didn't want to bump into everywhere... -_-" Gosh. What luck. Anywayz, that was the only slightly frustrating thing today, oh, and of course, the fact that I was late. Like crap. I was L-A-T-E. =S And _everytime_ I go to the arcade I end up borrowing money from someone. Today was no exception. >_<

Yepz, but that was all the frustrating things. Other than that, I had loadsa fun. Learnt about places I've never been to, made a rather loud (and led to embarrassing) comment in the cinema, climbed the seats in the cinema, and walked through a whole afternoon of 'I'm not stupid' lines that Clarence was imitating ^^;; It was extremely fun and amusing. And of course, I just had to keep walking the wrong direction and making a fool of myself ^^;; And kicking chairs and people. Heheh...

Dance: Yippee! Danced the DDR thingy today--- It was loads of fun~ =D=D It's just wonderful being able to play with my friends-- And like my dance partner was good!!! Made me remember lotsa stuff... Realised that I seem to end up playing Para and the DDR with my good friends-- Well, at least I hope this trend continues. Wish I could take a step back and video it sometimes so that the memories will always be fresh. But I can't exactly clone myself and take the video when I'm up there dancing too, right? Ah well. Tough luck.

To sum it up: It was much better than I thought it'd be ^_^ Which is good. The only pity? I didn't bring my camera-- Or I could have taken so many cute and interesting shots ;) Heheh... Ah well. And the total number of arcades visited today: 3. =D

I'm lucky: Gosh, yes, I feel like I'm so darn lucky. No matter what turbulances I have out there, I always have some kinda anchor there... Someone to turn to, people who will reach out for me when they notice, and notice they will when they look at me. Complicated feelings rage when I'm out there, yet I always have someone who will laugh at my sceptism, look way too far ahead and way too off-track and amuse me, someone I can be there for when they are down. This, I have, and this, I'm thankful for.

And gosh, that just sounded like some kinda Prudential advertisement, didn't it? Sigh, ah well. (And somehow I know someone's gonna repeat my 'sigh' >_< Bad habit of mine, ain't it?)


Signing off... ...
(Rambling on)

Screwed. The worst ever.

Some test thing: Okay... I did this funny test thingy on my3q.com on what sort of person i am... and I got this!:

Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest... Not a person who takes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to nfriends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who nreally get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

Oh yes, if you have the time do help me do a short survey for teenagers at http://www.my3q.com/home2/110/cutieangel89/ELIT_survey.phtml-- >_<

Today's presentaion & report: Okay, I've never felt like I let myself down this much before in my entire life...... I screwed up the presentation, I screwed up the report. Someone asked me "what happened" and I actually thought about it. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Nothing happened, and that's exactly why we failed so miserably. You look at us and the first thing you think is "gosh, not another of those stupid presentations... Can they just hurry up?" You look at the group after us, and you'll think "OMG. How on earth...... How did they...? What wonderful..." And then you'll just forget what you're saying in your awe and just shut up.

Yes, see the difference? Our group was the worst in the class. And you know what? This isn't the first time. I screwed up the first report for another subject too. How wonderful, Angeline. How wonderful. So much for wanting to get good results. Keep this up and you'll be lucky just scraping it through. Two more reports for 2 subjects...

Programming: Yes, the only way I can redeem myself. But really, do I really wanna just see _ONE_ miserable A on my report card and F for the rest of it? No way, man. No way.


Signing off... ...
Plummeting back into reality......

Test and SMIT scholarship

Some random quiz I did :



The emoticon that represents you best is the Winking Face


Which Emoticon Are You?

Brought to you by Tickle


Alienating the girls? NO!!: Okay, I've tried hanging around with the girls in my class (like the entire group of them) for some time and I realise why I always end up separated from them anyway... It's like, they always split from the rest of the class, and like... I just can't bring myself to stay outside the class and stroll in late on purpose >_< Like err, what happened to punctuality?? Sigh, ah well. But I must say, they're all still really nice people~ Still love talking to them and all~ But it sucks that because of that I'm getting nicknames from club. And I can't help it if one of my closer friends happens to be a guy!! HELLO!!! I had Chelsea in the past and like the entire club knew about her. -_-" gahh. Why couldn't they have said that I was going out with Chelsea?? Discrimination, that's what it is. Ah well.

Classmates: Yesh, there are some people in my class that are well... like... I dunno... Like 'manda sometimes... Sometimes they're just so sweet and cute that I feel like cuddling them and going 'aww!' Or maybe that's just because they helped out when I was getting rather pissed and irritated with some people. ^^;; If it weren't for them, I'd have broken down and

SMIT Scholarship thingy: Okay, I err, don't know how it happened, but I got it ^^;; First things first, the first thing I thought when I heard the news was 'What? Why isn't it ________ or ________ or sth?' Didn't really feel like I deserved it since the others were like really really nice and incredible people.... I really gave up all hope before I even went in for the interview... But I guess it might have been because of that that I managed to talk to the directors normally and all. Or it could have been because of my CCA points (from what I heard from inside news)

Met a semi-new nice person there-- Clarence (the senior. Semi-new cause I heard about him from 2 clubmates before). Jon, Clarence & Edwin were really great company before and after the interview... =D Yepz, I know this is gonna sound extremely cheesy, but I still wanna thank some people for their encouragement and stuff and telling me to go for it anyway even though I had half the mind to walk out of it... Let's see now... 'Manda, Jon, Clarence (the senior) and Clarence (the lecturer). =) Yepz. Thanks a mil guys!


Signing off... ...

The Identical Windows, patterns now disturbed

Passing
from window to window,
Multiple images swarm in sight.

Symmetrical patterns
Embedded in glass,
the first, no diferent from the next.

Each detail, by
insignificant detail
manufactured exquisitely,
Identically.

The moth rests,
against the cool glass,
a ripple now created
in the dark, quiet waters.

It grows dazed, and
flutters around restlessly
to find a place to stop,
to belong.

Futile efforts ensue
second after second,
minute after minute,
hour after hour,
Unwanted.

Two dissimilar entities,
Encapsulate an attempt to connect, as
Strong currents
now run underwater.
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^^;; Heyz~ I know some people are gonna say that my 'poem' entries are always angsty... but this time it's different!! This time, it's a fight going on! Heheh... This poem is somewhat related to some of my entries a week ago, if I'm not wrong. Anywayz, comments will be much appreciated!

Schoolwork: Gosh I've been slacking for ages now... It's time I pulled myself back together... Gotta stop playing so much... I've gotta buck up. >_<


Signing off... ...

Class humanity and society conformation

Class: Yesh! I felt like a bit of my humanity was seeping back into me today... ^^;; Okay, I felt bad when my buddy-class came in for programming prac... cause I wasn't sitting with Jon & co for the first time these 2 weeks... It's absolutely NOT because booth duty was over. I don't know... I just found someone I could hang out with in my class and just managed to stick with him at lunch... *sigh* It was... rather quiet, actually. Never felt so quiet during pracs before for some odd reason. Or maybe that was because of Shawn (one of my buddy-classmates) always being somewhere in the vicinity. ^^;;

Humanity: Okay, to the explanation... I left the com lab at 5.15or so... Which was a good 1 hour and 15 minutes longer than practical. And I spent (more than?) half of my time in the lab helping my friends ^^ Heheh, I felt like I had been transported back to a year ago~ When everything was nice and good and happy in class ^^;; And my 'constant' in class may just have revealed itself, now that Chelsea's no longer with me (sigh) ... Just maybe.

On a side note...: Is it really that great to conform to society's expectations, and misled mindsets of women and whatever else? I mean, look at the ads you stumble upon everytime you surf... "Hey, look. This woman was what, 80kg before, now she's 50!" Amazing, don't you think? What will! What perseverance! What bullshit! -_-" Sorry... I mean, okay, it _is_ rather admirable of her to be able to lose so much weight... It's not the process of losing weight that I'm pissed over. It's the fact that men seem to like girls skinny now, so everyone promptly becomes skinny. Like, if the lady looks like she'll be a healthy weight at 52, she has to be 45kg. Whyever so? o.O You're not on this earth to be eye candy... *coughs* At least, not on purpose... *coughbishiescough* you're not here to try to seduce every man or women on earth either right? Hm. Or maybe I'm just thinking too much.


Signing off... ... (rattling on)

P&P and BFs

Pride and prejudice: Yepz, I watched it twice over the weekend and had to return it on monday... Darn. sigh. Will be keeping an eye out for the VCD from now on... >_<>_< Anyway, you see the pattern? Snarry and now this? Much similarities don't you think? ;) Heh. Probably still love Snarry more though... =P

BFs: Gah. It must be some kinda virus spreading throughout the world... I've had a million people asking me 'Is there any guy you like?' or 'Do you have a bf?' or stuff along those lines the past week (okay, I'm exaggerating... maybe about 5 - 10?) For the last time, no. >_<


Signing off... ...

First week of school and cBoard

Fri - best day of the week: Yippee!! Heheh, yest was really the best I felt in my entire week~ Didn't really feel like the odd one out in school, left school early (like at 3+, the earliest ever in months!) and had my GEM, Mathematical puzzles and games, which was like ultra fun and I actually found quite a few of my friends!! =D=D But hm, now that it's no longer Friday, I feel extremely guilty cause of a lot of things... Sigh. Ah well. But for now, my GEM class will be my anchor for the week~ ^^

cBoard: Yepz, changed my tagboard ^^;; Thanks to Jonathan! Now you can err... bold or italise your words, or add colour to it if I'm not wrong ^^;; Hm. From now on i'll use 'Yuuki' in the taggy instead of chan ^^ If the colour combi looks bad tell me k? I kinda err, still suck at colour combis... Ah well.

Photo-essay result and prize: I'm not sure if I blogged about this before... but I entered the Japanese photo essay competition sometime in nov/dec if I'm not wrong... and well. Got the first prize for my category cause I was the only one that participated in it -_-" Anyway, one of my clubmates, Gary, accompanied me to collect my prizes on Wed I think, and I got myself some kino vouchers and stuff~ ^^ Heehee. Gonna get myself an organiser so I can actually start managing my life well. ^^;; Or as well as possible.

Bad memory: Err, actually wanted to blog 'bout a load of other stuff, but I kinda forgot a good 3/4 of it... So I guess this'll haveta do ^^;;


Signing off... ...

Mistaken Identity

Class: Gah, screw my previous post. Something screwed up with the system beforehand and I didn't check again... I'm not in the class I thought I was in. So I'm still with the guys from the class I was in last year. *sighs* Ah well. So much for good influence and breaking out of my shell. In lectures I feel like I'm running over to the other class... and still feel out of place... Complicated. Ultra complicated... >_<

Disconnection and stress: Now my class has a clash of my class and club people... and I'm not liking it. It sends my emotions on a roller coaster ride and makes me feel split. Like I'm getting stretched more and more each session, and am not sure whether I can stay in one piece. I'm trying to step out of my safe zone, and the transition is the cause of the stretching. If I manage to make a successful transition, I'll be tired, but happy. But if I fail....... I'll get torn. That won't be pretty. I've been feeling super suffocated and distressed... and guess what? It's only the second day of school! -_-" Stress.


Signing off... ...

Camp, class & quiz

Heyz people!! Just nicked this test thingy from Jonathan's blog... Hm. One or two sections may be inaccurate though... *coughs* That probably resulted from my lack of understanding for some of the questions... ^^;; Ah well... Mouse over the different sections to see what it represents.



School start!!: Sigh, school starts on monday... So much for the hols... I haven't really had a day of rest yet... Hopefully that'll change from tomorrow ^^;;;

Class: Okiez, I'm quite glad~ I'm in the same class as Jonathan, SQ and Shawn... Basically the smart people and those I can communicate with. ^^ That's... well. Good. I need the good influence. And they can basically kick me back into reality and in worst cases cause me to hide in one corner as I realise how little I know... ^^;; _That's_ how good they are. Ah well... Jonathan's the only one that managed to maintain his aggregate of 4.0... SQ didn't maintain, but still got higher than me... And Shawn? He's good in everything else =S Those are the same 3 that made it into CYA (Changi Youth Ambassadors) while I got kicked out... >_< Is that good or bad?

Camp: Yesh, FO Camp is FINALLY over!! I feel so bad though!! I fell asleep during one of the night activities at like 1am? And only woke up at like 5am... like what, an hour before the activity ended? Sigh... Basically I made myself useless during camp... BUT!!! It was still fun!! ^^;; I really did much less than what I expected myself to do... Drained myself of all energy and went below expectations... but, it was fun. ^_^


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Haircut and camp and cosplay plans and results

Heyz...

Test, again: Hm, when I did the animal test again a month ago or so I got a slightly different result......

You Are A: Duckling!

The cutest of the cute, these baby ducks are often spotted in the spring following closely behind their mother. As a duckling you will grow up quickly, becoming one of the adult ducks seen commonly in ponds and streams. Playful and timid, charming and vulnerable, ducklings are nature's very definition of innocence.

You were almost a: Chipmunk or a Lamb
You are least like a: Bear Cub or a Puppy

What Cute Animal Are You?

Cosplay: WHEE!!! Cosplay coming up again!! As in, in a group~ OMG can't wait~~~ Will be doing Bleach with Skye and Ignited for EoY... As for Cosfest... I guess I'll just go with Howl... Gah, a Howl without earrings... and without a Sophie... ='( Hope I don't screw it up this time...... Need to dig my previous golden chain out again for my necklace...

Camp: Prep camp will be this wed... till sat, then the real camp will be on the 6th... Omg, busy busy busy... Don't really know whether I'm looking forward to camp or not ^^;;; Throat screwing up again... >_<>

Slippers: Heheh, I suddenly got 2 new slippers that look... well, like they're meant to be worn out. In other words, girly. Hm. One of them is okay ^^;; the other one I'm bringing to camp... OMG the horror... It's a flip flop you know!! *dies* It's gonna be ubber uncomfortable. And noisy. Gah.

My hair: WAH I went for a haircut and it's now SHORT!! Crap!!! And like ALL my rebonded hair is like cut off. But at least it looks better than before sec 4... All my close friends and sec school friends will know... And jap class friends... Gosh, but at least it's err, slightly tie-able (is there even such a word??). It's like wavy everywhere and pong-ing everywhere. Never had short hair since what, primary 2? And I can still remember my teachers' reactions: "Angeline, did you perm your hair??", "Angeline, you know that perming is not allowed right?" Oh gosh. Let's hope history doesn't repeat itself...

My results: Err, got my results back... =S Was in trauma and shock... And so disappointed with myself... I got a B and a B+... Which means my Grade Point Average (GPA) got reduced from 4 to 3.8+ (the higher the better)... And I'm the worst out of my friends who got 4 last sem too... But after much scoldings and encouragement (from 'manda) I've decided... I'M GONNA COME BACK STRONG THE NEXT SEM AND (although I know I can never be at the top again) STOP SLACKING!! SCREW THEM!! SCREW THOSE WHO PUT ME DOWN!! I'M COMIN BACK!! >_<

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