A man rolls down the slope,
his body turning over and over
and over.
His head spins along with his turns
moving faster and faster
and with greater intensity.
his initial smile
Breaks
periodically
to contain his nausea,
and a voice chides him
for his Inability
to control his speed and
Increasing fear.
But he can only roll on,
and Wait
for the Ride
to stop.
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Okay, here's my blog entry! ^^;;
Assignments: Okay, I still have like a ton of assignments due soon... the one I'm panicking most about being the one due this Tuesday... I hardly understand the topic and well... Ya. I forced myself out of the mood early this morning to go sleep, and now I can't get back on track. Gah. >_< Shtupid me.
Lack of sleep: For the past couple of days, I've been sleeping and waking to do a wee bit of work, and then sleeping again. Which meant that I kept sleeping with my glasses on and my lappy, light and everything else switched on. I think I'll have to control my sleeping/working habits a little better from now on...
Birthdays: Hm. Here I thought that most of the birthdays I know occured in September (like Clar, 'Man, Momo, Deone etc)... but over the past few days I've received birthday alarms for 4 people already =S Like... Whaaa??? >_< Not that I'd attend to all of them, but still... Gah. Ah well.
Confidence: Okay, I've just been told by my teammates that I need to be more authoritative, and by my lecturer (to my mum) that I give the impression that I have no confidence. So I need to be more agressive, my mum concluded. Errr.... Like, huh??? >_< Okay... some guy from my class last year told me that a couple of people saw me as 'arrogant' and 'selfish', but I felt (though it's quite mean) that they were the ones being selfish when they gave that conclusion... I don't know what to believe though. Yes, the confidence thing I've noticed too... but I'm pretty much an introvert... so... Not that easy... -_-"
Signing off... ...
Peanuts, Coconuts and Cashew nuts are good...
Sunday, 23 July 2006
Wednesday, 12 July 2006
Poly 50 & stupid buses
Another rambling entry... ...
Poly 50: Okay, I went to help out at the relay event in my school today... It's called Poly 50. Don't ask me why, it just is. Anyway, we were supposed to help keep the non-running participants behind the boundaries... and only one runner per team (like there were a hundred teams) on the road. Some _stupid_ idiots kept staying on the road... Even the lecturers! I kept walking back and forth repeating "Sorry, can you please move back a little? Thank you." Like gawd-knows-how-many-times that I got semi tired of it.
Stupidity: And it didn't help that some of my lecturers were running too, so I didn't dare to tell them off, and that some _other_ helpers were like standing in the middle of the road at the beginning of the line and blocking the other runners, thereby encouraging the next runners to move forward. HELLO!!! USE YOUR BRAIN!! Even _I'M_ not that stupid. -_-" You block them, so they move forward to see their runners, people behind can't see and they move forward too... Lo and behold, we get major congestion. What brilliance. ......What stupidity.
I tried to ask them as nicely as I could to move back too, and they told me, "it doesn't make a difference la." Oh, right. Then explain to me why it is the moment you guys left I successfully pushed the runners back? *raises eyebrows* Like... Hm. I'm _sure_ it didn't make a difference. -_-"
Bus' GCS: Okay, is that satellite thingy called the GCS? The one used in our buses now too to detect when the bus is at the bus stop? Yeah, anyway, that thing is screwed. So much for "you can tap 100m away from your alighting bus stop". The door was open at my bus stop and the thing still had that error sign...! And this is not the first time. The first few times I saw that, I just smirked and hopped off without bothering to take my EZ-link out. This time, my EZ-link was already out, and I was about to tap. I stared at the dumb device for a couple of seconds after the door opened (I was the only one alighting), placed the card on top of the sensor (which obviously didn't work, nor help) and then just couldn't be bothered and alighted. The bus driver didn't even do anything.
Sigh. So much for technology.
Assignments: Great. 1 assignment due tomorrow, another due friday, 1 test next week, 3 assignments due the week after, another 1 assignment due the week after that... and then it's exams... Considering I haven't done anything _but_ the one due tomorrow...? I'm screwed. It sounds much scarier than I thought it was now that I say it like that... Screwed up one subject utterly. Hope I can remedy that soon... 60% of assignment marks gone for one subject already... Guess all I can do is pray or something... Wish me luck!!
Signing off... ...
Poly 50: Okay, I went to help out at the relay event in my school today... It's called Poly 50. Don't ask me why, it just is. Anyway, we were supposed to help keep the non-running participants behind the boundaries... and only one runner per team (like there were a hundred teams) on the road. Some _stupid_ idiots kept staying on the road... Even the lecturers! I kept walking back and forth repeating "Sorry, can you please move back a little? Thank you." Like gawd-knows-how-many-times that I got semi tired of it.
Stupidity: And it didn't help that some of my lecturers were running too, so I didn't dare to tell them off, and that some _other_ helpers were like standing in the middle of the road at the beginning of the line and blocking the other runners, thereby encouraging the next runners to move forward. HELLO!!! USE YOUR BRAIN!! Even _I'M_ not that stupid. -_-" You block them, so they move forward to see their runners, people behind can't see and they move forward too... Lo and behold, we get major congestion. What brilliance. ......What stupidity.
I tried to ask them as nicely as I could to move back too, and they told me, "it doesn't make a difference la." Oh, right. Then explain to me why it is the moment you guys left I successfully pushed the runners back? *raises eyebrows* Like... Hm. I'm _sure_ it didn't make a difference. -_-"
Bus' GCS: Okay, is that satellite thingy called the GCS? The one used in our buses now too to detect when the bus is at the bus stop? Yeah, anyway, that thing is screwed. So much for "you can tap 100m away from your alighting bus stop". The door was open at my bus stop and the thing still had that error sign...! And this is not the first time. The first few times I saw that, I just smirked and hopped off without bothering to take my EZ-link out. This time, my EZ-link was already out, and I was about to tap. I stared at the dumb device for a couple of seconds after the door opened (I was the only one alighting), placed the card on top of the sensor (which obviously didn't work, nor help) and then just couldn't be bothered and alighted. The bus driver didn't even do anything.
Sigh. So much for technology.
Assignments: Great. 1 assignment due tomorrow, another due friday, 1 test next week, 3 assignments due the week after, another 1 assignment due the week after that... and then it's exams... Considering I haven't done anything _but_ the one due tomorrow...? I'm screwed. It sounds much scarier than I thought it was now that I say it like that... Screwed up one subject utterly. Hope I can remedy that soon... 60% of assignment marks gone for one subject already... Guess all I can do is pray or something... Wish me luck!!
Signing off... ...
Thursday, 6 July 2006
Unlucky or stupid? Or perhaps a combination of both?
Unlucky: Hm, let's see... My lucky keychain broke about 2 days ago... (The Satoshi one with a wing at the bottom) My earpiece fell apart yesterday (So I can't use it anymore), and guess what? My bag broke today!! If things go on at this rate I won't dare to bring my lappy to school anymore in case _that's_ the next thing that breaks =S I'd cry if that happens... But for now, I have no choice 'cause of the ton of assignments coming up... *hopes and prays nothing happens to my lappy*
Stupid: Okay, today I was in a big rush... Cause I had to rush to a briefing after my classes, afterwhich I had to run to dance. I switched my laptop off, and then closed it to allow it to shutdown on its own, before going going to my next destination... When I reached home after my entire day, I realised that it hadn't shut down because something hanged. As a result, my poor laptop was roasting.
I almost panicked, but I realised it was still okay, so... ^^;; Guess the good thing is that I managed to deplete my laptop's battery... Which was something I was supposed to be doing soon... So at least that saved me some trouble... Erm, I just hope I didn't shorten my laptop's life as a result..... =S
Ton of work: Okay, I have like 3 assignments due next week... On Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. And I've got to help out at some dumb event after school on Wednesday. Like, crap. I. Am. So. Dead. *Sighs* I guess with good things come bad things... Or maybe it's just my lack of control and discipline... =S
Knowing someone: I had this conversation with someone a couple days back about how much you know a person... I always thought that the length of time would hold some kind of weight. Apparently it does, but very minimal. I was thinking about someone I only knew for a month or so... And was wondering how it was possible that I could grow so close to that person during the course of only a month... Then I realised that it isn't the length of time that matters, but how much you know about that person.
Trust holds a really critical role in relationships, I realise. It is either given over time (like how I gave mine to 'manda and Skye), or given at risk in the beginning. Either way it is that trust and how much about that person you know that defines the relationship. I'm not even sure if I'm making sense here... but that's what I thought. Anyone with comments about this?
Chicken rice: Okay, this is ultra random... but I've been wanting to say this for some time... THE CHICKEN RICE AT TIONG BAHRU PLAZA ROCKS!! Heheh... Yeah. I think I've fallen in love with it. ;)
Signing off... ...
Stupid: Okay, today I was in a big rush... Cause I had to rush to a briefing after my classes, afterwhich I had to run to dance. I switched my laptop off, and then closed it to allow it to shutdown on its own, before going going to my next destination... When I reached home after my entire day, I realised that it hadn't shut down because something hanged. As a result, my poor laptop was roasting.
I almost panicked, but I realised it was still okay, so... ^^;; Guess the good thing is that I managed to deplete my laptop's battery... Which was something I was supposed to be doing soon... So at least that saved me some trouble... Erm, I just hope I didn't shorten my laptop's life as a result..... =S
Ton of work: Okay, I have like 3 assignments due next week... On Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. And I've got to help out at some dumb event after school on Wednesday. Like, crap. I. Am. So. Dead. *Sighs* I guess with good things come bad things... Or maybe it's just my lack of control and discipline... =S
Knowing someone: I had this conversation with someone a couple days back about how much you know a person... I always thought that the length of time would hold some kind of weight. Apparently it does, but very minimal. I was thinking about someone I only knew for a month or so... And was wondering how it was possible that I could grow so close to that person during the course of only a month... Then I realised that it isn't the length of time that matters, but how much you know about that person.
Trust holds a really critical role in relationships, I realise. It is either given over time (like how I gave mine to 'manda and Skye), or given at risk in the beginning. Either way it is that trust and how much about that person you know that defines the relationship. I'm not even sure if I'm making sense here... but that's what I thought. Anyone with comments about this?
Chicken rice: Okay, this is ultra random... but I've been wanting to say this for some time... THE CHICKEN RICE AT TIONG BAHRU PLAZA ROCKS!! Heheh... Yeah. I think I've fallen in love with it. ;)
Signing off... ...
Sunday, 2 July 2006
Conversation and Movies
Okay, a lot of things happened... but as usual, when I don't write them down they all fly outta my head... so... I shan't be blogging about those stuff...
Tests and Assignments: Okay, thank goodness for the end of exams... But I'm dreading getting my results back... I mean, if I get really bad... I have no idea what I'm gonna do... It's come to this point where I'm quite ready to give this semester up... but I know I can't. Now I've got to face my assignments... And I'm not really in the mood to be doing them either. Gah. Am I screwed or what?
Overheard conversation: Okay, I heard this conversation the other day between 2 girls... and apparently about this other guy called 'Matthew' (not his real name). I'm sure this is not the full conversation nor the exact words cause I was too busy balking to have heard the entire thing... I have no idea what to name the girls, so 'Girl A' and 'Girl B' will have to suffice. Conversation starts off with Girl A.
"Hey, so how'd it go?"
"How did what go?"
"You know, just now."
"Huh? Nothing?"
Girl A laughed.
"Were we that obvious?"
"I could tell he was interested in you."
"What??"
"So it's true then?"
"Err, kind of."
"He doesn't seem that bad. You could give him a try."
Okay, this is where I stopped listening to the conversation. Like since when could someone tell another what to do in a relationship without knowing anything? Like, WHAT? Girl A doesn't seem to know anything about that Matthew guy and yet she can tell her friend to accept him. That's just... so weird. Isn't a relationship about something _between_ two people? And not how one person looks and whatever else? Like since when can you dictate what someone should feel from a one-time encounter?
Alright, I don't even know if I'm making sense... But it kinda got me somewhat irritated... I'm just glad my close friends aren't like that. *shudders* Scary...
Movies: Darn, I'm getting super excited over 'King and the Clown' after hearing about stuff from 'manda. Gosh, it seems like an ultra nice show (though I know I shouldn't be getting my hopes up too high lest I get let down) and I _so_ can't wait to watch it next Sat. And I'm going to watch Pirates with parts of the rhombus soon too... This is good, and bad, cause I'm getting so excited over them I'm promptly forgetting that I have something called 'School', and 'Assignments'. Hm.
Signing off... ...
Tests and Assignments: Okay, thank goodness for the end of exams... But I'm dreading getting my results back... I mean, if I get really bad... I have no idea what I'm gonna do... It's come to this point where I'm quite ready to give this semester up... but I know I can't. Now I've got to face my assignments... And I'm not really in the mood to be doing them either. Gah. Am I screwed or what?
Overheard conversation: Okay, I heard this conversation the other day between 2 girls... and apparently about this other guy called 'Matthew' (not his real name). I'm sure this is not the full conversation nor the exact words cause I was too busy balking to have heard the entire thing... I have no idea what to name the girls, so 'Girl A' and 'Girl B' will have to suffice. Conversation starts off with Girl A.
"Hey, so how'd it go?"
"How did what go?"
"You know, just now."
"Huh? Nothing?"
Girl A laughed.
"Were we that obvious?"
"I could tell he was interested in you."
"What??"
"So it's true then?"
"Err, kind of."
"He doesn't seem that bad. You could give him a try."
Okay, this is where I stopped listening to the conversation. Like since when could someone tell another what to do in a relationship without knowing anything? Like, WHAT? Girl A doesn't seem to know anything about that Matthew guy and yet she can tell her friend to accept him. That's just... so weird. Isn't a relationship about something _between_ two people? And not how one person looks and whatever else? Like since when can you dictate what someone should feel from a one-time encounter?
Alright, I don't even know if I'm making sense... But it kinda got me somewhat irritated... I'm just glad my close friends aren't like that. *shudders* Scary...
Movies: Darn, I'm getting super excited over 'King and the Clown' after hearing about stuff from 'manda. Gosh, it seems like an ultra nice show (though I know I shouldn't be getting my hopes up too high lest I get let down) and I _so_ can't wait to watch it next Sat. And I'm going to watch Pirates with parts of the rhombus soon too... This is good, and bad, cause I'm getting so excited over them I'm promptly forgetting that I have something called 'School', and 'Assignments'. Hm.
Signing off... ...
Monday, 26 June 2006
Distraction galore
Okay, I wasn't supposed to blog, I really wasn't. Much less about this nonsensical... Nonsense. But the urge just came on... so...
Good mood?: Came across a lot of stupid people today that would have gotten me kinda irritated usually... but I just laughed internally. Which is... WEIRD. I'm feeling extremely disturbed about it all...
Distracted: As you can see, that's mainly the reason why I'm here blogging and not studying when I have an exam tomorrow which I've not even studied one chapter of!! I've been at the same chapter since I came back home today... I'm. So. Screwed.
Embarassment: Okay, is it possible to spontaneously combust from embarassment? =S Oddly enough, I seem to think that possible... >_<
Okay, I'm not supposed to be blogging... So I shall go back to studying.
Signing off... ...
Panicking.
Good mood?: Came across a lot of stupid people today that would have gotten me kinda irritated usually... but I just laughed internally. Which is... WEIRD. I'm feeling extremely disturbed about it all...
Distracted: As you can see, that's mainly the reason why I'm here blogging and not studying when I have an exam tomorrow which I've not even studied one chapter of!! I've been at the same chapter since I came back home today... I'm. So. Screwed.
Embarassment: Okay, is it possible to spontaneously combust from embarassment? =S Oddly enough, I seem to think that possible... >_<
Okay, I'm not supposed to be blogging... So I shall go back to studying.
Signing off... ...
Panicking.
Saturday, 24 June 2006
KHK and brain switched off
KHK: Very, extremely entertaining~ ^^ Skye was like so nervous in the beginning!! =S I was like down (or up) there thinking to myself, "Come on Skye, you can do it. I know you can. Stop freaking out...!" Turned out alright. ^^;; I remember that happening before too. Somehow or another.
Something that would have got me on low spirits just didn't penetrate through today... That is, I met a lot of familiar faces and people I know, and I'm sure they know me too...? But none talked to me, save for Senti. And my 'imouto'. Ah well.
Brainless: Okay, I can officially say that my head has gone on holiday. -_-" And to think that the tests are just 2 days away... Gosh. Need to finish studying...
Random stuff: Yes, I know I've never posted a video... but I thought this was rather cool. Like... wow. It'd be fun running around a country like that:
I am out of time so I shall end here.
Signing off... ...
Head rest.
Something that would have got me on low spirits just didn't penetrate through today... That is, I met a lot of familiar faces and people I know, and I'm sure they know me too...? But none talked to me, save for Senti. And my 'imouto'. Ah well.
Brainless: Okay, I can officially say that my head has gone on holiday. -_-" And to think that the tests are just 2 days away... Gosh. Need to finish studying...
Random stuff: Yes, I know I've never posted a video... but I thought this was rather cool. Like... wow. It'd be fun running around a country like that:
I am out of time so I shall end here.
Signing off... ...
Head rest.
Friday, 23 June 2006
World Cup, and reminiscing
Rambling post...
Wasted time: Okay, I was supposed to be studying and finishing my security module... And I ended up digging up past stuff and looking through them till like about 4+. Found something that was given to me in P6 during my birthday, and a letter together with it. The person made it clear that I pissed her off all the time, but she didn't not like me. The paper was falling apart. Made me think back.
They probably don't know this, but no matter how they didn't like me in the beginning, we managed to become friends after some time, and they were the ones who broke my irritating outside... The entire Anime group.... And I'm extremely grateful for that. They were, what, the first few true friends I really made in primary school. Yes, extremely pathetic, I know, having only made proper friends in P5/P6. They're one bunch I'll never forget.
Tarot cards: Okay, spent some time playing with my tarot cards this afternoon... And just now. My cards seem to be teasing me or something... Like when I asked a question, thinking that I already know the answer, but I just want to ask anyway, it gave me replies that indirectly meant "If you know it already why ask?" 3 times in a row -_-" Geez. Weird things happen when I'm supposed to be studying. This time, I've gotten back on my tarot card craze.
KHK tmr: Kouhaku (red-white song battle) tomorrow!! Yes, it'll be my first time going after like what, 4 years? =S Will be dragging someone with me and supporting Skye! This is going to be so fun.
Met Momo: Yes, gosh, missed her... Although I was only with her for slightly over an hour, it was nice. Catching up and all that. And I finally stepped into a neoprint shop again after what, a year? =D Sharing flowers with her for Skye even though she can't make it... ^^;;
Soccer craze: Apparently Momo follows some matches too- Those with the Japan team, of course. She told me about stuff and it felt so normal to be talking to her about soccer even though I don't follow it. It's probably cause she really was supporting a team. We talked about stuff and agreed on one thing: It's really sad how many Singaporeans don't actually support the teams... but follow the World Cup for betting.
I feel that strongly in school. Like everyone around me seems to be betting on the matches... And I only hear a rare few who really support a particular team. Zero-people seem to be talking about the action or about support. All I've been hearing is results, results, results, and "Stupid la, if only they made one more goal!". If my close friends say that I think I can safely infer that it was a close match between their favourite team and another, but since it's not... they mean, "Darn, I betted 3-1 and they scored 2-1." -_-" Riight. Ah well. It's extremely sad, though... So much for the World Cup.
Signing off... ...
Wasted time: Okay, I was supposed to be studying and finishing my security module... And I ended up digging up past stuff and looking through them till like about 4+. Found something that was given to me in P6 during my birthday, and a letter together with it. The person made it clear that I pissed her off all the time, but she didn't not like me. The paper was falling apart. Made me think back.
They probably don't know this, but no matter how they didn't like me in the beginning, we managed to become friends after some time, and they were the ones who broke my irritating outside... The entire Anime group.... And I'm extremely grateful for that. They were, what, the first few true friends I really made in primary school. Yes, extremely pathetic, I know, having only made proper friends in P5/P6. They're one bunch I'll never forget.
Tarot cards: Okay, spent some time playing with my tarot cards this afternoon... And just now. My cards seem to be teasing me or something... Like when I asked a question, thinking that I already know the answer, but I just want to ask anyway, it gave me replies that indirectly meant "If you know it already why ask?" 3 times in a row -_-" Geez. Weird things happen when I'm supposed to be studying. This time, I've gotten back on my tarot card craze.
KHK tmr: Kouhaku (red-white song battle) tomorrow!! Yes, it'll be my first time going after like what, 4 years? =S Will be dragging someone with me and supporting Skye! This is going to be so fun.
Met Momo: Yes, gosh, missed her... Although I was only with her for slightly over an hour, it was nice. Catching up and all that. And I finally stepped into a neoprint shop again after what, a year? =D Sharing flowers with her for Skye even though she can't make it... ^^;;
Soccer craze: Apparently Momo follows some matches too- Those with the Japan team, of course. She told me about stuff and it felt so normal to be talking to her about soccer even though I don't follow it. It's probably cause she really was supporting a team. We talked about stuff and agreed on one thing: It's really sad how many Singaporeans don't actually support the teams... but follow the World Cup for betting.
I feel that strongly in school. Like everyone around me seems to be betting on the matches... And I only hear a rare few who really support a particular team. Zero-people seem to be talking about the action or about support. All I've been hearing is results, results, results, and "Stupid la, if only they made one more goal!". If my close friends say that I think I can safely infer that it was a close match between their favourite team and another, but since it's not... they mean, "Darn, I betted 3-1 and they scored 2-1." -_-" Riight. Ah well. It's extremely sad, though... So much for the World Cup.
Signing off... ...
Sunday, 18 June 2006
Mirror half and talk with manda & Sugino
I look into the eyes in the mirror
Filled with fear.
Its usual cheer
Devoured by his other half.
The gaze
Burns me
And I look away
To soothe the flames
That erupted in my head.
I feel the pain,
I feel the hesitance,
I feel the hope.
Yet none of this
Is mine.
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The 'poem': Just so you know, that doesn't reflect my current situation ^^;; Don't ask why I suddenly put that up, I don't know >_<
Stuff: Just had a nice talk with 'manda, and everything feels so much better now =) Screw everything. I'll take things one step at a time.
Talk with my doc: A trip to the doctor's a few days ago ended as some kind of sharing session. My world is protected now, she said. When I go out into the 'real' world, I may suffer from shock or something of the like, and when that happens, I can go look for her. Hm. Protected, yes.
I know this is utterly different from what she meant, but I think I'm really really lucky to have my current great friends and... well, stuff. It's just really sweet when I feel the protectiveness radiating off sometimes.
Fathers' Day: I think I can safely say that none of you here are fathers, but Happy Fathers' Day all the same. ^^
What?: Okay, I actually had loads to say, but everything's staying in my mind as overlapping emotions and random words that refuse to take form, so... I shall just leave this as that.
Signing off... ...
Over-blogging
Filled with fear.
Its usual cheer
Devoured by his other half.
The gaze
Burns me
And I look away
To soothe the flames
That erupted in my head.
I feel the pain,
I feel the hesitance,
I feel the hope.
Yet none of this
Is mine.
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The 'poem': Just so you know, that doesn't reflect my current situation ^^;; Don't ask why I suddenly put that up, I don't know >_<
Stuff: Just had a nice talk with 'manda, and everything feels so much better now =) Screw everything. I'll take things one step at a time.
Talk with my doc: A trip to the doctor's a few days ago ended as some kind of sharing session. My world is protected now, she said. When I go out into the 'real' world, I may suffer from shock or something of the like, and when that happens, I can go look for her. Hm. Protected, yes.
I know this is utterly different from what she meant, but I think I'm really really lucky to have my current great friends and... well, stuff. It's just really sweet when I feel the protectiveness radiating off sometimes.
Fathers' Day: I think I can safely say that none of you here are fathers, but Happy Fathers' Day all the same. ^^
What?: Okay, I actually had loads to say, but everything's staying in my mind as overlapping emotions and random words that refuse to take form, so... I shall just leave this as that.
Signing off... ...
Over-blogging
Saturday, 17 June 2006
Rationality and Computron
Rationality: Screw what I said a few days ago. Rationality has been thrown out the window, or ignored. -_-"
Turbo: Everything seems to have been going in turbo-mode the past few weeks... and it seems so long although it's only been such a short time. Like, too many things have happened. That is, only in certain aspects. I look at my assignments and it's different though. In that case everything seems to have zoomed by like a rocket. Everything's still untouched. I. NEED. To. Start. Concentrating.
Yes, 'manda, I know I ought to be slapped.
Computron: Yepz, second round and finals today. It was extremely fun to see the finalists battle it out. The secondary school kids were like fighting a war, the JC guys were better, and more coherent, and the tertiary people were... well. Amusing and like... Whoa. Glad to say the 'whoa' came from my buddy-classmate's group (which got first), and the SIM group. Err, amusing group was also from SP though ^^ That group went in the third round of the finals with err, 7(?) points and and came out with 0. On the dot. And there we were, worrying that they would emerge with negative points ^^;;
But even though they were amusing and cute, I still have to say that they weren't as silly as we thought, considering that they understood most of the questions that I went 'what?' at. Like, what's a binary tree with root 1? Huh?? Binary tree? All I could think of was a tree drawn with 1s and 0s. -_-" They got the answer half right, but points weren't awarded unless you get the full answer, so... Ah well.
On the contrary: The first round for the secondary school kids was like... super stupid. E.g.
What's a Desktop?
a) The display area
b) The area around the monitor
Erm, I forgot options c and d cause I think I was too busy laughing ^^;; And... Which of the following has the most space? RAM, floppy disk, CD, DVD, hard drive? Like... DUH I'm sure we've got a floppy disk in gigabytes >_<
Okay, enough rambling for today.
Signing off... ...
Turbo: Everything seems to have been going in turbo-mode the past few weeks... and it seems so long although it's only been such a short time. Like, too many things have happened. That is, only in certain aspects. I look at my assignments and it's different though. In that case everything seems to have zoomed by like a rocket. Everything's still untouched. I. NEED. To. Start. Concentrating.
Yes, 'manda, I know I ought to be slapped.
Computron: Yepz, second round and finals today. It was extremely fun to see the finalists battle it out. The secondary school kids were like fighting a war, the JC guys were better, and more coherent, and the tertiary people were... well. Amusing and like... Whoa. Glad to say the 'whoa' came from my buddy-classmate's group (which got first), and the SIM group. Err, amusing group was also from SP though ^^ That group went in the third round of the finals with err, 7(?) points and and came out with 0. On the dot. And there we were, worrying that they would emerge with negative points ^^;;
But even though they were amusing and cute, I still have to say that they weren't as silly as we thought, considering that they understood most of the questions that I went 'what?' at. Like, what's a binary tree with root 1? Huh?? Binary tree? All I could think of was a tree drawn with 1s and 0s. -_-" They got the answer half right, but points weren't awarded unless you get the full answer, so... Ah well.
On the contrary: The first round for the secondary school kids was like... super stupid. E.g.
What's a Desktop?
a) The display area
b) The area around the monitor
Erm, I forgot options c and d cause I think I was too busy laughing ^^;; And... Which of the following has the most space? RAM, floppy disk, CD, DVD, hard drive? Like... DUH I'm sure we've got a floppy disk in gigabytes >_<
Okay, enough rambling for today.
Signing off... ...
Friday, 16 June 2006
Silent Hill and Boat Quay
Fishes: Okay, like err, I don't believe I've 'fish'ed this many times in 2 days before... Fished at least a million times yesterday because of my onslaught of gastric, and another million times today when I sent an sms to the subject of a message instead of the intended recipient. Gosh, _that_ was embarassing. -_-" Fished my entire way home after that.
Silent Hill plot: Okay, went to watch the movie, but err, the grossly pictures grossed me out. Let's just say 20 minutes into the movie I suddenly remembered why I don't watch horror movies. My asthma. Like, gosh, how can one forget about something like that??? -_-" Dumb people do that, apparently. But it didn't turn out bad. It was quite sad, but alright. Not really that shocking, like the kind that has stuff jumping out at you. This had a bit more of a dumb plot.
Fav character: Oh, and the character I liked died. -_-" Happens all the time doesn't it. Oh, thank you so much. For goodness sake, she was like, intelligent and sweet! Why do they _always_ have to kill those nice characters off? Still think that she and the main character would look really cute together, but perhaps that's just me. But she is really cool. Too good for the main character actually. She actually died for the main character!! And her famous line, though filled with a bit of vulgarity, sounded really cute coming from her =P
Main character: But the main character of the show was like ultra dumb. The dumbest person I have ever seen actually. If I could I would have thrown something at her and made sure I aimed for her head. HELLO like there's supposed to be _something_ in that skull of yours!! What did you do to it, throw it out the window before the movie started?? -_-" Gosh.
Others: Yeah, well, other stuff happened today too, but I shan't blog about those. Let's just say Boat Quay looks rather nice when the lights come on and it's a really good place to talk. And hear soccer fans screaming their lungs out.
Signing off... ...
Silent Hill plot: Okay, went to watch the movie, but err, the grossly pictures grossed me out. Let's just say 20 minutes into the movie I suddenly remembered why I don't watch horror movies. My asthma. Like, gosh, how can one forget about something like that??? -_-" Dumb people do that, apparently. But it didn't turn out bad. It was quite sad, but alright. Not really that shocking, like the kind that has stuff jumping out at you. This had a bit more of a dumb plot.
Fav character: Oh, and the character I liked died. -_-" Happens all the time doesn't it. Oh, thank you so much. For goodness sake, she was like, intelligent and sweet! Why do they _always_ have to kill those nice characters off? Still think that she and the main character would look really cute together, but perhaps that's just me. But she is really cool. Too good for the main character actually. She actually died for the main character!! And her famous line, though filled with a bit of vulgarity, sounded really cute coming from her =P
Main character: But the main character of the show was like ultra dumb. The dumbest person I have ever seen actually. If I could I would have thrown something at her and made sure I aimed for her head. HELLO like there's supposed to be _something_ in that skull of yours!! What did you do to it, throw it out the window before the movie started?? -_-" Gosh.
Others: Yeah, well, other stuff happened today too, but I shan't blog about those. Let's just say Boat Quay looks rather nice when the lights come on and it's a really good place to talk. And hear soccer fans screaming their lungs out.
Signing off... ...
Tuesday, 13 June 2006
ECP and Fog's cleared
East Coast Park: Yepz, went to ECP to roller blade with Clarence... Like, yeah! The last time I went was with Deone, before Poly started. As usual, it took me a short while before I remembered how to blade, but it came faster than usual ^^;; 'Twas Clarence's first time blading, so we were like stumbling together in the beginning when I was still trying to remember how to blade... Then he just got better and better. ^_^ So anyway, it went like really well, and I used my cam to take lots of photos... The videos, for some reason or another, just doesn't work on my com though. -_-"
Fish and co: Ate there for the first time that day... Okay, if your jaw has just dropped, please pick it back up, I'm sure it's unbecoming. >_< Yep, ex, as I thought. But the fish was good- Guess that's why they're called 'Fish and co' ^^;; *coughs* Although I think I kept stepping on Clarence's toe =s Like, halfway through a conversation he suddenly said, "that's my toe". Gosh, and there I was happily tapping my foot against what I thought was the ground =S Wah.
Oh, and they had these weird gunnysack things hanging from the ceilings that I only noticed after I finished eating, and it was so tempting to just stand up and squeeze the gunnysacks to see what was in it. Paper? Cotton wool? Or perhaps their rubbish? Hm. It'll have to remain a mystery until I get the chance to kidnap one or something.
Skye and 'man: The fog has cleared, like finally!! Skye, thanks for listening to me =) I get what you mean, and it's processed now (not that you'll see this), and 'man? I'm glad you're back =D
Rationality: Okay, I don't know whether or not I hate my sense of rationality. Sure, there are times when it's just thrown out the window. But if I try hard enough, it comes back in about 2 days or so -_-" It's supposed to be good right? But I can't help feeling somewhat... I dunno, regretful about it all. Cause once it takes control... I don't know, sometimes it feels more like the 'shunning' part of me returns. Everything turns numb. And I don't exactly enjoy being numb.
Signing off... ...
Fish and co: Ate there for the first time that day... Okay, if your jaw has just dropped, please pick it back up, I'm sure it's unbecoming. >_< Yep, ex, as I thought. But the fish was good- Guess that's why they're called 'Fish and co' ^^;; *coughs* Although I think I kept stepping on Clarence's toe =s Like, halfway through a conversation he suddenly said, "that's my toe". Gosh, and there I was happily tapping my foot against what I thought was the ground =S Wah.
Oh, and they had these weird gunnysack things hanging from the ceilings that I only noticed after I finished eating, and it was so tempting to just stand up and squeeze the gunnysacks to see what was in it. Paper? Cotton wool? Or perhaps their rubbish? Hm. It'll have to remain a mystery until I get the chance to kidnap one or something.
Skye and 'man: The fog has cleared, like finally!! Skye, thanks for listening to me =) I get what you mean, and it's processed now (not that you'll see this), and 'man? I'm glad you're back =D
Rationality: Okay, I don't know whether or not I hate my sense of rationality. Sure, there are times when it's just thrown out the window. But if I try hard enough, it comes back in about 2 days or so -_-" It's supposed to be good right? But I can't help feeling somewhat... I dunno, regretful about it all. Cause once it takes control... I don't know, sometimes it feels more like the 'shunning' part of me returns. Everything turns numb. And I don't exactly enjoy being numb.
Signing off... ...
Sunday, 11 June 2006
Rose and air-con
Random post.
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The air-con switches itself on,
And I feel the cold air rush in,
Its icy-cold wings spreading themselves around me.
The switch is un-locatable,
And my limbs s l o w l y
Start to freeze.
"Are you alright?"
I hear a voice-
And yet the damned smile spreads and I nod.
No one notices,
Or even feels the cold,
And yet
I continue to freeze,
The ice-cold seeping into my bones.
I hope fervently
for the warmth they feel to spread
to my numbing limbs,
though I know it futile.
As the machine runs on,
Past efforts to recover
Slip past my conscience.
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Rose: Heheh... someone showed me this link to a video and a guide on how to create paper roses... If any of you guys are interested, the link's http://www.wikihow.com/Fold-a-Paper-Rose and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BZnhMl85dq4. After I created it I took some photos and looked at them... One particular photo reminded me of the love rhombus for some odd reason... So I just took the photo and splashed one line on ^^;; Yepz, here it is, for the love rhombus (though probably only 1 of you guys will see it here):
Missing you guys.
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The air-con switches itself on,
And I feel the cold air rush in,
Its icy-cold wings spreading themselves around me.
The switch is un-locatable,
And my limbs s l o w l y
Start to freeze.
"Are you alright?"
I hear a voice-
And yet the damned smile spreads and I nod.
No one notices,
Or even feels the cold,
And yet
I continue to freeze,
The ice-cold seeping into my bones.
I hope fervently
for the warmth they feel to spread
to my numbing limbs,
though I know it futile.
As the machine runs on,
Past efforts to recover
Slip past my conscience.
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Rose: Heheh... someone showed me this link to a video and a guide on how to create paper roses... If any of you guys are interested, the link's http://www.wikihow.com/Fold-a-Paper-Rose and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BZnhMl85dq4. After I created it I took some photos and looked at them... One particular photo reminded me of the love rhombus for some odd reason... So I just took the photo and splashed one line on ^^;; Yepz, here it is, for the love rhombus (though probably only 1 of you guys will see it here):
Signing off... ...
Roller Coaster and Computron
Let me first warn you this: I'm not in the right train of mind, utter random nonsense up ahead so... read on at your own risk!
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Up and up and up... and
Whoooooosssh down with a sharp right turn.
Up and down, up and down,
another few more unexpected turns and
a 360-degree flip.
Exhiliration mixes with increasing nausea
As the ride goes on,
and yet
I refuse to get off it.
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???: Okay, err... I'm not very sure what I just wrote myself. Does it make sense?
Craziness: I'm crazy. I'm on my way to madness, I'm sure of that. "I've gotta be outta my mind" - that's the line that has been repeating itself over and over and over in my head everyday, every hour. I've never heard something repeat itself so many times before. Gah. Maybe I _am_ going crazy.
Tired: Okay, perhaps all this madness is coming from my lack of sleep, I have no idea. I've been sleeping at 3 for the past 3 days or so (okay, I know some of you do too, but I have never done that >_<) and everyone knows what happens when I get tired. I do stupid stuff. Or I get a migraine. This time, it's both. But someone has been accompanying me (virtually) the past few days and it's helped a lot in keeping me awake... So I guess it ain't that bad. ^^;;
Computron: Yep, that's the name of the competition I went for today, and will be going for again next week. The 1st round(which was today) had us creating little bots that will transfer codes to the opponent's bots when we bang into them. The aim is to eliminate them.
It was really funny cause my team's bots kept killing themselves and well. Keep getting deactivated and all for no reason. And when we tested it against the sample one in the computer, we got wiped out in a matter of a few seconds. Ah well. Thankfully, we managed to (or seem to have) improve it a little in the last 5 to 10 minutes when one of my team members suddenly suggested something. Other than the fact that the later version had my main bot turning around in circles like some mad magnetic compass I guess it worked better than the previous one ^^;;
But it was fun. =^^=
SP-dominated: Oh, and did I mention? Like 7 groups were from SP... When my group came into the room to get seated we were like the 5th SP group... The guy was like "Huh?? SP again?" and the secondary school/JC team behind us went "wah lao eh". I couldn't stop myself from laughing. Indeed, when I looked around, the entire back half of the computer lab was from our school, our faculty. Heh. Now _that_ is domination.
Signing off... ...
(????????)
I'm happy.
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Up and up and up... and
Whoooooosssh down with a sharp right turn.
Up and down, up and down,
another few more unexpected turns and
a 360-degree flip.
Exhiliration mixes with increasing nausea
As the ride goes on,
and yet
I refuse to get off it.
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???: Okay, err... I'm not very sure what I just wrote myself. Does it make sense?
Craziness: I'm crazy. I'm on my way to madness, I'm sure of that. "I've gotta be outta my mind" - that's the line that has been repeating itself over and over and over in my head everyday, every hour. I've never heard something repeat itself so many times before. Gah. Maybe I _am_ going crazy.
Tired: Okay, perhaps all this madness is coming from my lack of sleep, I have no idea. I've been sleeping at 3 for the past 3 days or so (okay, I know some of you do too, but I have never done that >_<) and everyone knows what happens when I get tired. I do stupid stuff. Or I get a migraine. This time, it's both. But someone has been accompanying me (virtually) the past few days and it's helped a lot in keeping me awake... So I guess it ain't that bad. ^^;;
Computron: Yep, that's the name of the competition I went for today, and will be going for again next week. The 1st round(which was today) had us creating little bots that will transfer codes to the opponent's bots when we bang into them. The aim is to eliminate them.
It was really funny cause my team's bots kept killing themselves and well. Keep getting deactivated and all for no reason. And when we tested it against the sample one in the computer, we got wiped out in a matter of a few seconds. Ah well. Thankfully, we managed to (or seem to have) improve it a little in the last 5 to 10 minutes when one of my team members suddenly suggested something. Other than the fact that the later version had my main bot turning around in circles like some mad magnetic compass I guess it worked better than the previous one ^^;;
But it was fun. =^^=
SP-dominated: Oh, and did I mention? Like 7 groups were from SP... When my group came into the room to get seated we were like the 5th SP group... The guy was like "Huh?? SP again?" and the secondary school/JC team behind us went "wah lao eh". I couldn't stop myself from laughing. Indeed, when I looked around, the entire back half of the computer lab was from our school, our faculty. Heh. Now _that_ is domination.
Signing off... ...
(????????)
I'm happy.
Thursday, 8 June 2006
Guitar strings and overdose
Too much of a good thing: This is just like having an overdose - like eating the same favourite food of yours every day, for every meal. I know this is not good, and yet I'm doing it. I can foresee the time when I will be sick of it for a short period of time before it comes back again, and I don't want it to happen. Guess I'll just have to monitor my intake... Or hope it's like chicken rice. At least I won't get sick of _that_.
And in case you haven't realised... I wasn't talking about food.
The indestructable balance...: Okay, I've just found someone who noticed it too! But that person uses some other words to describe it. Used to have it in my MSN nick like for the whole of last year or something? I can't remember... But recently, it hasn't been making itself known to me, and that is... scary. Extremely so. Or maybe my happy things are just cancelling the unhappy ones? I have no idea.
CAMERA: YES YES YES!!! I've got a camera now!!! As in, again! No, my dead one hasn't revived itself, but it's as-good-as, or even better!!! Love my new cam, and I just can't WAIT to use it this Friday and Monday and whenever else.... *rubs hands in glee* This is going to be so much fun.
Randomness: Okay, I just saw something in Skye's blog that I couldn't help laughing at... Heheh... "Apparently you dun pluck a guitar string...you stroke it....XD sounds bad doesn't it". *laughs* I guess I do learn something new everyday. I never knew that despite listening to a brother play one for god-knows-how-many-years. Ah well.
Signing off... ...
And in case you haven't realised... I wasn't talking about food.
The indestructable balance...: Okay, I've just found someone who noticed it too! But that person uses some other words to describe it. Used to have it in my MSN nick like for the whole of last year or something? I can't remember... But recently, it hasn't been making itself known to me, and that is... scary. Extremely so. Or maybe my happy things are just cancelling the unhappy ones? I have no idea.
CAMERA: YES YES YES!!! I've got a camera now!!! As in, again! No, my dead one hasn't revived itself, but it's as-good-as, or even better!!! Love my new cam, and I just can't WAIT to use it this Friday and Monday and whenever else.... *rubs hands in glee* This is going to be so much fun.
Randomness: Okay, I just saw something in Skye's blog that I couldn't help laughing at... Heheh... "Apparently you dun pluck a guitar string...you stroke it....XD sounds bad doesn't it". *laughs* I guess I do learn something new everyday. I never knew that despite listening to a brother play one for god-knows-how-many-years. Ah well.
Signing off... ...
Tuesday, 6 June 2006
Outing with clarence and me, lucky.
Today: Yepz, went out today to watch 'Over the hedge' with Clarence (the senior). We got backed out on by 3 people... Then kept bumping into people we didn't want to bump into everywhere... -_-" Gosh. What luck. Anywayz, that was the only slightly frustrating thing today, oh, and of course, the fact that I was late. Like crap. I was L-A-T-E. =S And _everytime_ I go to the arcade I end up borrowing money from someone. Today was no exception. >_<
Yepz, but that was all the frustrating things. Other than that, I had loadsa fun. Learnt about places I've never been to, made a rather loud (and led to embarrassing) comment in the cinema, climbed the seats in the cinema, and walked through a whole afternoon of 'I'm not stupid' lines that Clarence was imitating ^^;; It was extremely fun and amusing. And of course, I just had to keep walking the wrong direction and making a fool of myself ^^;; And kicking chairs and people. Heheh...
Dance: Yippee! Danced the DDR thingy today--- It was loads of fun~ =D=D It's just wonderful being able to play with my friends-- And like my dance partner was good!!! Made me remember lotsa stuff... Realised that I seem to end up playing Para and the DDR with my good friends-- Well, at least I hope this trend continues. Wish I could take a step back and video it sometimes so that the memories will always be fresh. But I can't exactly clone myself and take the video when I'm up there dancing too, right? Ah well. Tough luck.
To sum it up: It was much better than I thought it'd be ^_^ Which is good. The only pity? I didn't bring my camera-- Or I could have taken so many cute and interesting shots ;) Heheh... Ah well. And the total number of arcades visited today: 3. =D
I'm lucky: Gosh, yes, I feel like I'm so darn lucky. No matter what turbulances I have out there, I always have some kinda anchor there... Someone to turn to, people who will reach out for me when they notice, and notice they will when they look at me. Complicated feelings rage when I'm out there, yet I always have someone who will laugh at my sceptism, look way too far ahead and way too off-track and amuse me, someone I can be there for when they are down. This, I have, and this, I'm thankful for.
And gosh, that just sounded like some kinda Prudential advertisement, didn't it? Sigh, ah well. (And somehow I know someone's gonna repeat my 'sigh' >_< Bad habit of mine, ain't it?)
Signing off... ...
(Rambling on)
Yepz, but that was all the frustrating things. Other than that, I had loadsa fun. Learnt about places I've never been to, made a rather loud (and led to embarrassing) comment in the cinema, climbed the seats in the cinema, and walked through a whole afternoon of 'I'm not stupid' lines that Clarence was imitating ^^;; It was extremely fun and amusing. And of course, I just had to keep walking the wrong direction and making a fool of myself ^^;; And kicking chairs and people. Heheh...
Dance: Yippee! Danced the DDR thingy today--- It was loads of fun~ =D=D It's just wonderful being able to play with my friends-- And like my dance partner was good!!! Made me remember lotsa stuff... Realised that I seem to end up playing Para and the DDR with my good friends-- Well, at least I hope this trend continues. Wish I could take a step back and video it sometimes so that the memories will always be fresh. But I can't exactly clone myself and take the video when I'm up there dancing too, right? Ah well. Tough luck.
To sum it up: It was much better than I thought it'd be ^_^ Which is good. The only pity? I didn't bring my camera-- Or I could have taken so many cute and interesting shots ;) Heheh... Ah well. And the total number of arcades visited today: 3. =D
I'm lucky: Gosh, yes, I feel like I'm so darn lucky. No matter what turbulances I have out there, I always have some kinda anchor there... Someone to turn to, people who will reach out for me when they notice, and notice they will when they look at me. Complicated feelings rage when I'm out there, yet I always have someone who will laugh at my sceptism, look way too far ahead and way too off-track and amuse me, someone I can be there for when they are down. This, I have, and this, I'm thankful for.
And gosh, that just sounded like some kinda Prudential advertisement, didn't it? Sigh, ah well. (And somehow I know someone's gonna repeat my 'sigh' >_< Bad habit of mine, ain't it?)
Signing off... ...
(Rambling on)
Tuesday, 30 May 2006
Screwed. The worst ever.
Some test thing: Okay... I did this funny test thingy on my3q.com on what sort of person i am... and I got this!:
Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest... Not a person who takes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to nfriends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who nreally get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.
Oh yes, if you have the time do help me do a short survey for teenagers at http://www.my3q.com/home2/110/cutieangel89/ELIT_survey.phtml-- >_<
Today's presentaion & report: Okay, I've never felt like I let myself down this much before in my entire life...... I screwed up the presentation, I screwed up the report. Someone asked me "what happened" and I actually thought about it. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Nothing happened, and that's exactly why we failed so miserably. You look at us and the first thing you think is "gosh, not another of those stupid presentations... Can they just hurry up?" You look at the group after us, and you'll think "OMG. How on earth...... How did they...? What wonderful..." And then you'll just forget what you're saying in your awe and just shut up.
Yes, see the difference? Our group was the worst in the class. And you know what? This isn't the first time. I screwed up the first report for another subject too. How wonderful, Angeline. How wonderful. So much for wanting to get good results. Keep this up and you'll be lucky just scraping it through. Two more reports for 2 subjects...
Programming: Yes, the only way I can redeem myself. But really, do I really wanna just see _ONE_ miserable A on my report card and F for the rest of it? No way, man. No way.
Signing off... ...
Plummeting back into reality......
Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest... Not a person who takes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to nfriends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who nreally get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.
Oh yes, if you have the time do help me do a short survey for teenagers at http://www.my3q.com/home2/110/cutieangel89/ELIT_survey.phtml-- >_<
Today's presentaion & report: Okay, I've never felt like I let myself down this much before in my entire life...... I screwed up the presentation, I screwed up the report. Someone asked me "what happened" and I actually thought about it. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Nothing happened, and that's exactly why we failed so miserably. You look at us and the first thing you think is "gosh, not another of those stupid presentations... Can they just hurry up?" You look at the group after us, and you'll think "OMG. How on earth...... How did they...? What wonderful..." And then you'll just forget what you're saying in your awe and just shut up.
Yes, see the difference? Our group was the worst in the class. And you know what? This isn't the first time. I screwed up the first report for another subject too. How wonderful, Angeline. How wonderful. So much for wanting to get good results. Keep this up and you'll be lucky just scraping it through. Two more reports for 2 subjects...
Programming: Yes, the only way I can redeem myself. But really, do I really wanna just see _ONE_ miserable A on my report card and F for the rest of it? No way, man. No way.
Signing off... ...
Plummeting back into reality......
Tuesday, 23 May 2006
Test and SMIT scholarship
Some random quiz I did :
The emoticon that represents you best is the Winking Face
Which Emoticon Are You?
Brought to you by Tickle
Alienating the girls? NO!!: Okay, I've tried hanging around with the girls in my class (like the entire group of them) for some time and I realise why I always end up separated from them anyway... It's like, they always split from the rest of the class, and like... I just can't bring myself to stay outside the class and stroll in late on purpose >_< Like err, what happened to punctuality?? Sigh, ah well. But I must say, they're all still really nice people~ Still love talking to them and all~ But it sucks that because of that I'm getting nicknames from club. And I can't help it if one of my closer friends happens to be a guy!! HELLO!!! I had Chelsea in the past and like the entire club knew about her. -_-" gahh. Why couldn't they have said that I was going out with Chelsea?? Discrimination, that's what it is. Ah well.
Classmates: Yesh, there are some people in my class that are well... like... I dunno... Like 'manda sometimes... Sometimes they're just so sweet and cute that I feel like cuddling them and going 'aww!' Or maybe that's just because they helped out when I was getting rather pissed and irritated with some people. ^^;; If it weren't for them, I'd have broken down and
SMIT Scholarship thingy: Okay, I err, don't know how it happened, but I got it ^^;; First things first, the first thing I thought when I heard the news was 'What? Why isn't it ________ or ________ or sth?' Didn't really feel like I deserved it since the others were like really really nice and incredible people.... I really gave up all hope before I even went in for the interview... But I guess it might have been because of that that I managed to talk to the directors normally and all. Or it could have been because of my CCA points (from what I heard from inside news)
Met a semi-new nice person there-- Clarence (the senior. Semi-new cause I heard about him from 2 clubmates before). Jon, Clarence & Edwin were really great company before and after the interview... =D Yepz, I know this is gonna sound extremely cheesy, but I still wanna thank some people for their encouragement and stuff and telling me to go for it anyway even though I had half the mind to walk out of it... Let's see now... 'Manda, Jon, Clarence (the senior) and Clarence (the lecturer). =) Yepz. Thanks a mil guys!
Signing off... ...
The emoticon that represents you best is the Winking Face
Which Emoticon Are You?
Brought to you by Tickle
Alienating the girls? NO!!: Okay, I've tried hanging around with the girls in my class (like the entire group of them) for some time and I realise why I always end up separated from them anyway... It's like, they always split from the rest of the class, and like... I just can't bring myself to stay outside the class and stroll in late on purpose >_< Like err, what happened to punctuality?? Sigh, ah well. But I must say, they're all still really nice people~ Still love talking to them and all~ But it sucks that because of that I'm getting nicknames from club. And I can't help it if one of my closer friends happens to be a guy!! HELLO!!! I had Chelsea in the past and like the entire club knew about her. -_-" gahh. Why couldn't they have said that I was going out with Chelsea?? Discrimination, that's what it is. Ah well.
Classmates: Yesh, there are some people in my class that are well... like... I dunno... Like 'manda sometimes... Sometimes they're just so sweet and cute that I feel like cuddling them and going 'aww!' Or maybe that's just because they helped out when I was getting rather pissed and irritated with some people. ^^;; If it weren't for them, I'd have broken down and
SMIT Scholarship thingy: Okay, I err, don't know how it happened, but I got it ^^;; First things first, the first thing I thought when I heard the news was 'What? Why isn't it ________ or ________ or sth?' Didn't really feel like I deserved it since the others were like really really nice and incredible people.... I really gave up all hope before I even went in for the interview... But I guess it might have been because of that that I managed to talk to the directors normally and all. Or it could have been because of my CCA points (from what I heard from inside news)
Met a semi-new nice person there-- Clarence (the senior. Semi-new cause I heard about him from 2 clubmates before). Jon, Clarence & Edwin were really great company before and after the interview... =D Yepz, I know this is gonna sound extremely cheesy, but I still wanna thank some people for their encouragement and stuff and telling me to go for it anyway even though I had half the mind to walk out of it... Let's see now... 'Manda, Jon, Clarence (the senior) and Clarence (the lecturer). =) Yepz. Thanks a mil guys!
Signing off... ...
Tuesday, 2 May 2006
The Identical Windows, patterns now disturbed
Passing
from window to window,
Multiple images swarm in sight.
Symmetrical patterns
Embedded in glass,
the first, no diferent from the next.
Each detail, by
insignificant detail
manufactured exquisitely,
Identically.
The moth rests,
against the cool glass,
a ripple now created
in the dark, quiet waters.
It grows dazed, and
flutters around restlessly
to find a place to stop,
to belong.
Futile efforts ensue
second after second,
minute after minute,
hour after hour,
Unwanted.
Two dissimilar entities,
Encapsulate an attempt to connect, as
Strong currents
now run underwater.
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^^;; Heyz~ I know some people are gonna say that my 'poem' entries are always angsty... but this time it's different!! This time, it's a fight going on! Heheh... This poem is somewhat related to some of my entries a week ago, if I'm not wrong. Anywayz, comments will be much appreciated!
Schoolwork: Gosh I've been slacking for ages now... It's time I pulled myself back together... Gotta stop playing so much... I've gotta buck up. >_<
Signing off... ...
from window to window,
Multiple images swarm in sight.
Symmetrical patterns
Embedded in glass,
the first, no diferent from the next.
Each detail, by
insignificant detail
manufactured exquisitely,
Identically.
The moth rests,
against the cool glass,
a ripple now created
in the dark, quiet waters.
It grows dazed, and
flutters around restlessly
to find a place to stop,
to belong.
Futile efforts ensue
second after second,
minute after minute,
hour after hour,
Unwanted.
Two dissimilar entities,
Encapsulate an attempt to connect, as
Strong currents
now run underwater.
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^^;; Heyz~ I know some people are gonna say that my 'poem' entries are always angsty... but this time it's different!! This time, it's a fight going on! Heheh... This poem is somewhat related to some of my entries a week ago, if I'm not wrong. Anywayz, comments will be much appreciated!
Schoolwork: Gosh I've been slacking for ages now... It's time I pulled myself back together... Gotta stop playing so much... I've gotta buck up. >_<
Signing off... ...
Thursday, 27 April 2006
Class humanity and society conformation
Class: Yesh! I felt like a bit of my humanity was seeping back into me today... ^^;; Okay, I felt bad when my buddy-class came in for programming prac... cause I wasn't sitting with Jon & co for the first time these 2 weeks... It's absolutely NOT because booth duty was over. I don't know... I just found someone I could hang out with in my class and just managed to stick with him at lunch... *sigh* It was... rather quiet, actually. Never felt so quiet during pracs before for some odd reason. Or maybe that was because of Shawn (one of my buddy-classmates) always being somewhere in the vicinity. ^^;;
Humanity: Okay, to the explanation... I left the com lab at 5.15or so... Which was a good 1 hour and 15 minutes longer than practical. And I spent (more than?) half of my time in the lab helping my friends ^^ Heheh, I felt like I had been transported back to a year ago~ When everything was nice and good and happy in class ^^;; And my 'constant' in class may just have revealed itself, now that Chelsea's no longer with me (sigh) ... Just maybe.
On a side note...: Is it really that great to conform to society's expectations, and misled mindsets of women and whatever else? I mean, look at the ads you stumble upon everytime you surf... "Hey, look. This woman was what, 80kg before, now she's 50!" Amazing, don't you think? What will! What perseverance! What bullshit! -_-" Sorry... I mean, okay, it _is_ rather admirable of her to be able to lose so much weight... It's not the process of losing weight that I'm pissed over. It's the fact that men seem to like girls skinny now, so everyone promptly becomes skinny. Like, if the lady looks like she'll be a healthy weight at 52, she has to be 45kg. Whyever so? o.O You're not on this earth to be eye candy... *coughs* At least, not on purpose... *coughbishiescough* you're not here to try to seduce every man or women on earth either right? Hm. Or maybe I'm just thinking too much.
Signing off... ... (rattling on)
Humanity: Okay, to the explanation... I left the com lab at 5.15or so... Which was a good 1 hour and 15 minutes longer than practical. And I spent (more than?) half of my time in the lab helping my friends ^^ Heheh, I felt like I had been transported back to a year ago~ When everything was nice and good and happy in class ^^;; And my 'constant' in class may just have revealed itself, now that Chelsea's no longer with me (sigh) ... Just maybe.
On a side note...: Is it really that great to conform to society's expectations, and misled mindsets of women and whatever else? I mean, look at the ads you stumble upon everytime you surf... "Hey, look. This woman was what, 80kg before, now she's 50!" Amazing, don't you think? What will! What perseverance! What bullshit! -_-" Sorry... I mean, okay, it _is_ rather admirable of her to be able to lose so much weight... It's not the process of losing weight that I'm pissed over. It's the fact that men seem to like girls skinny now, so everyone promptly becomes skinny. Like, if the lady looks like she'll be a healthy weight at 52, she has to be 45kg. Whyever so? o.O You're not on this earth to be eye candy... *coughs* At least, not on purpose... *coughbishiescough* you're not here to try to seduce every man or women on earth either right? Hm. Or maybe I'm just thinking too much.
Signing off... ... (rattling on)
Tuesday, 25 April 2006
P&P and BFs
Pride and prejudice: Yepz, I watched it twice over the weekend and had to return it on monday... Darn. sigh. Will be keeping an eye out for the VCD from now on... >_<>_< Anyway, you see the pattern? Snarry and now this? Much similarities don't you think? ;) Heh. Probably still love Snarry more though... =P
BFs: Gah. It must be some kinda virus spreading throughout the world... I've had a million people asking me 'Is there any guy you like?' or 'Do you have a bf?' or stuff along those lines the past week (okay, I'm exaggerating... maybe about 5 - 10?) For the last time, no. >_<
Signing off... ...
BFs: Gah. It must be some kinda virus spreading throughout the world... I've had a million people asking me 'Is there any guy you like?' or 'Do you have a bf?' or stuff along those lines the past week (okay, I'm exaggerating... maybe about 5 - 10?) For the last time, no. >_<
Signing off... ...
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