Cosplay, Work and Competence

Competence: Some people judge me cause of my grades, my results... Think I'm good... Truthfully, I don't think I am. People look at my results, make assumptions, carve their own impression of me... Without knowing me. Without taking the effort to know me.

I hate that.

I hate it when people say stuff like: "Aiyah, what cannot... You JLPT 1 leh!"

To hell with JLPT 1.

I took it, what, 2 years ago? Passed it on the DOT too. I was facing the principal of the Hiroshima Institute of Technology Polytechnic the other day, and I couldn't say a word. All I could do was smile and nod. Even when I wanted to say something I found that I didn't know how to.

I have no confidence, I have no ability.

Now, please stop with all these assumptions made from looking at my grades. It isn't just for Japanese, it's for everything. IT, school, friendships, dancing... Whatever.

Don't judge me from paper, from what you don't know.

Save your judgements for after you know me.

Please.

Class Outing: We had this outing a few days back, to gather with our friends whom were all flying to China for their overseas internship. We had a load of fun at Clarke Quay, and it was really great spending time with all of them =D We even took some photos~

For quite a few of them, I know that it was a long-awaited break from all the hassle and stress that came about from our schoolwork and projects. For me, it was a break alright, and an eye-opener.

Got to walk around Clarke Quay at night (which I've not exactly done before) and I got to walk past the street where all the clubs and pubs were... Twas interesting ^^ Clarke Quay in the morning and at night are seriously 2 extremely extremely different places.. (I should know. I used to frequent Clarke Quay a LOT in the morning)

Thank you to Eunice and Michelle for accompanying me to Spotlight before meeting up with the guys(the queue in Spotlight and looking at the stalls at PS caused us to be late though... Sorry..!!). It was nice to hang out with you guys, even if it was just a while ^_^

Cosplay Performance: Ok, I just came back from a 4 hour session with the cosplayers... I'm a backup dancer for the Hare Hare Yukai dance, and I seriously just CAN'T get it right. Maybe I've taken a break from dance for too long. My memory span is like what, 10 seconds now? @_@ ARGH! I've been practicing for the past 20min or so in front of my computer and I STILL can't keep up. And the dance segment's like only 30 seconds or something..! Oh noooooo.... I'll make myself practice and listen on the way to school and back or something.

Load of things to do: I have a TRUCKLOAD of things to do at the moment... When I met up with the cosplayers, I really saw how stressed the lot of them were, rushing not only theirs, but everyone else's costume, armour, accessories and what-nots. Dusty almost broke down, Skye was majorly stressed, Cat brought the crosses she had to do and was constantly working on it everytime we took a break, Mark was skipping work, and everyone was doing something or another, or helping someone else with something. Everyone was having a lack of sleep, everyone was going to sacrifice their sleeping time to complete what they can for the team.

Me? I've got school. At that moment it seemed a very weak excuse as to why I could not settle, at the very least, my own costume. I'm going to have to do this, one way or another.

It's just a LOAD of things these few weeks... Next Saturday is the event (in which I need to collect the costume, attach my armour, get my wig done, sew my skirt and attach the lace and get the dance right), and then Clar's graduating from his BMT on Tuesday... And so I'll probably have to find some time to spend with him. Adding to that is this dance performance I REALLY want to see on Wednesday.

And that shitload of things up there probably means that I will be squeezing any possible tiny bit of time for my FYP, and seriously, even _that_ is really screwing up big time too.

I just need to survive till the middle of January. Get all this settled. Get all this done. Properly. Nicely. Well.

Wish me luck. I need to learn to cope with less sleep. I have to. I need to.

Cosplay: Seeing the team and how everyone worked together, I'm reminded of why I've been staying in Cosplay all these years... I see now, why Andrea loves the team so much. 1/2 of them probably don't even know who I am, but I really starting to feel this fondness for them...

Am I still going to retire..? I have no idea. But then again, I'd likely have no cash to support my costume for next year... Guess I'll have to take it as it comes. I'll decide again when the time comes.


Signing off... ...
Busy

Of Dreams and Meetings

*coughs* I'm so sorry... Eh... Well, the most of this post will actually be me narrating a dream of mine ^^;; One that I dreamt about when I was sleeping a few days back >_< So yep... Watch out ^^;;

If you wanna skip it, skip till after the next section ^_^ Thankies..!! =D

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Dream: Hmm... Haven't blogged in a while and the first thing I wanna blog about is my dream ^^;;; Pardon my eccentric-ness. Just a warning... But the following paragraphs will contain quite a bit of story-telling.

Anywayz, had this dream 2 nights back that was scarily detailed and heartwrenching... And the emotions I felt were just so intense and real that it plagued me for the whole of yesterday. In fact, I can still remember the main part clearly... @_@

The setting was war-like... Where we had to fight an enemy. No idea who the 'we' was... A particular organisation maybe? The 'main characters' in the dream were Clar, me and this other guy that probably doesn't exist in real life. Three of us were extremely close in the dream, and moved together, worked together and cared a lot for each other.

The new character: The character of the random guy [whoops I really don't know how else to refer to him] was really strong... Like always fighting to the end and knowing what to do and was very nice, sensible and mature.

Then, in one of the 'battles', he got captured. Clar and I got captured not soon after too.

The climax: When I woke (Clar woke at about the same time), the guy was lying to my right (a bit of a higher position) and Clar was lying near my feet. We were in this blue-y grey-y tingued tunnel (or room or whatever... I'm not sure) with tubes attached to us: at our nose and body. When I sat up, the guy woke too, and Clar had just about understood the severity of what was happening. I was ordered to remove the tubes straightaway and I did, turning to help the other guy too.

He looked at this meter attached to his tubes [that I never dared to look at throughout] and , and that we would probably find out if it was true in a short while. By that time all of us were free of the tubes. It was seconds later that he started to pant and gasp for air. His gasping turned more violent and I panicked like mad. Admist his gasping he looked at me and begged me to re-attach the tubes to him.

My hands shook and his violent movements affecting as well, I failed once before I managed to insert the tube/s properly. His gasps stopped a second later and he passed out.

Background info on the machines attached: The machine we were attached to was this thing that could change the body system of a human to get the oxygen he/she needed from water instead of air. Basically, it means that we would have to be in water in order to survive. One of the tubes was supposed to sustain us while we were still on land.

But cause Clar and I were captured only later, the time the machine was attached to us was shorter than that guy's, so we were alright.

The heartwrenching part: Clar then decided that we had to escape at that point before we got re-captured. We had no choice but to leave him behind, as there was no way we could bring him along without killing him.

After that: I didn't get any news after that about him, and we went back to our lives... I was still extremely affected in the dream, all the way until I woke. @_@

Scary dream... The details were surprisingly there. Except for the 'fighting' part. ^^;; There was still a bit of stuff near the end that caused me some mental breakdown in my dream, but I shan't go into that >_<

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Met up: Met up with Momo and Andrea on Sun~ Had fun talking and catching up with Momo~ =D Sad that I had to leave halfway for quite a while to accompany Andrea to Sim Lim though =(

First things first... HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY MOMO!!

And yea, hope you're happy back in Japan now... We'll all be missing you..!! ='(

W-inds song: Don't ask me why I started listening to some w-inds songs outside of what I hear from momo and co... I just happened to ^^;;; I particularly like this one called "Love message" =D Can see the video here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rPV50vWXo4E


Signing off... ...
Emo Ride

Surprise farewell party

Just a quick update about today...

Farewell party: We had a 'surprise' farewell party for Momo today... And well. Andrea, as usual, kinda got Momo suspicious (so I guess). The first thing she said was "I think forget about the barbeque la, let's just take something away instead." I promptly walked over and pinched her subtly. Then... "Is Peiyi (someone whom was supposedly not in the gang that we were supposed to be hanging out with) coming today?" I pinched her again. -_-" Oh gosh! So typical!! I ended up having to pull her aside and telling her not to breathe a peep about it anymore >_< But well... It went okay after that =D It was really really fun hanging around everyone and catching up. Ended up reaching home at 12+. Like =O

Momo leaving: Momo'll be leaving Friday morning (none of us realised it was so fast!!) and most of us are planning to send her off >_<>_<>_<

My EOY cosplay: Heh, we were kinda talking about cosplay at the gathering... Just 3 of us... This is how our conversation went:

Girl 2: *ramble about our end of year cosplay plans*
Girl 1: "Trinity Blood?"
Girl 2: "Yeah. She's (me) our kate scott!"
Girl 1: "Wha? You're who?"
Me: "The hologram."
Girl 1: "Ohh!! That!"

^^;;; Hmm... I guess my character's known all round as 'the hologram' >_< Quite funny, actually, though quite sad- ^^;;


Signing off... ...

December Updates

Okay... lots of things to update on... so this is gonna be an extremely boring, long, long-winded post. BEWARE.

EOY: Well, EOY. Let's see... It was pretty good on the whole =) Mood was slightly off, but otherwise alright~ Made up for the fangirling after I came back and saw the photos ^^;; Heheh... Fangirled once for a little less than a minute while our group was taking group shots though... For a short while- Twas a nice feeling- =D

On to my (ultra) belated fangirling... THERE WAS A KADAJ THIS YEAR TOO!! Pretty Kadaj, though not as bishie *sighs dreamily* as the one last year, but still a pretty Kadaj. I _think_ 'he' won something in the individual competition if I'm not wrong... like 1st or 2nd... but I didn't exactly keep track, so... >_<

And well... I realised something after I came back... I DIDN'T LOOK FOR MARIA-SAMA!!! =S Wahh... So I didn't see her this year... =( =( Suddenly miss her as Maria, and her _singing_ as Maria... But ah well. >_<

AND SKYE SANG REALLY WELL!!! If she was nervous, she didn't show it this time!! SHO PROUD OF HER!!! =D Yeah.

Sentosa: Went to Sentosa with Clar... but twas raining so... ah well. Played this thing called the Luge ride... and twas darn fun~ =D Ohoh and we sat the glass cable car thingy there and back... twas really nice =) We had a hard time finding the entrance to the cable car place though ^^;;

P5/6 Gathering: WHEE met up with Grace, Jel, Pearl, Momo and Andrea (basically the old anime gang) for a gathering~ =D=D We were at Vivocity and camped at Food Republic and Carl's Jr for most of the day just chatting, eating, writing/drawing and well, chatting, then Andrea insisted on having her IKEA meatballs so we decided to head over to Momo's place-

Momo's mum was really really nice to agree to cook for us and stuff. Then we ate... and ate... and ate. So did everyone else ^^;; So much for watching our diet. All of us ended up super stuffed by the end of the day.

Twas really really fun and everything~ And seeing everybody... twas a good feeling =)

OG26 Gathering: Another group I hadn't seen in ages... Well, granted, not everyone went, but it was alright I guess... The person who asked for the outing couldn't make it though... >_< Cause he suddenly had duty or something like that... ^^;; Ah well.

Forgot how it was to laugh extremely hard... but was reminded that day- ^_^ When Sam was telling us about stuff and the guys were being their usual lame selves. Rachel and I did a bit of catching up too~

Ate at Jack's Place... and well. I had no cash... =S And Rachel ended up paying for me... Gosh I felt so bad!! I _have_ to pay her back >_< When we meet up again next time I suppose- ^^ I hope we manage to find a time to meet up- =)

Escape: WHEE Went to Escape with Clar- Went through this haunted house thing... (I suspect it's new cause I never knew of its existence before) where the scariest part was before we went in, when half of this group of people were trying to scare the other half about the ride being really scary, and when we entered this pitch black area cause I couldn't see anything and was not sure where to turn and could not put my hands out in front of me cause a hand was kind of occupied behind me- If you didn't catch that, nope it wasn't scary ^^;; And I guess that kind of says a bit coming from me ^^;;

OH Then we played the Go-Karts~~ NICE!!! [warning lots of gibberish up ahead] I was like *step* *vroom* *whoa* *whee* *vroom* *yay* ^^; twas LOADS of fun~~~ =D=D

Then of course there was the log ride... where we got all WET =D Niccceee~ Of course it wasn't exactly the fact that we got wet... it was more of the fact that we slid down a really high thingy and _then_ got all wet as we hit the bottom. =D Talk about fun.

We tried the games out too- just as the clouds started to come in and shower on us- (so we were safe) We won a Nemo- or rather, a clownfish, but well. *shrugs* It's currently holding residence in my room. =)

Stuff happened before and after that, I guess, but I don't remember them anymore... so =)=) It was a pretty fun day as far as I'm concerned.

Christmas Countdown: Went for my first Christmas countdown at Orchard... and well. Twas alright I guess ^^;; up till the actual countdown... when things got a little... well. Messed up.

Things got really squeezy and rather bad when some extremely rowdy and inconsiderate people made themselves known at the scene. We were squashed in the middle of the crowd, and could do nothing as waves of extreme pushing came... Halfway through it I focused on maintaining my balance and blocked most of everything else out.

All I could remember was the actual countdown, when we were still getting pushed around, Clar screaming for them to stop seconds after the stroke of midnight, and well. Water getting poured on us... And the extremely ironic situation when the emcee for the event in front of us said "admist all the hustling and bustling, we should slow down and close our eyes to..." erm, well, I think I forgot what she said after that... but it was something about thinking about others and Christmas and what's given to us or something like that...

But the ironic thing was that she was telling us this when there was a whole crowd of people in front of her getting squashed and pushed around.

But I was glad that Clar was there. When he pulled me to the side to wait for the crowd to dissipate before letting us leave... For like getting worried after the entire pushing episode, and when he found out that my feet had been somewhat trampled upon, and well. Stuff. And for buying us the spray thing to play with (although I only used my can on his arm once after his spray caught me twice) All in all, thanks- =)

Christmas: Twas one of the better Christmas days I had... Had already fallen sick, but well, despite that I had a great time. Learnt part of a song on the piano (although it's only the intro) and watched Dead Poet's Society, and made konyaku jelly and stuff- =) Twas nice.

And the prezzies I got~ Twas nice- =) I've got 2 additions to the family - A small round blue penguin, and a Schnauzer. ^^; And TAROT CARDS! PROPER TAROT CARDS! Like yay~ =D Heehee...

And of course, thank you to MANDA, GRACE and MOMO for the Christmas cards that you guys sent me... And for the letters and notes that came with it- It's late, but rest assured that a reply will come your way >_<

Sick: Yes, well, I fell sick. And as usual, at the most inappropriate of times >_< Had this terrible smell coming from me that I couldn't get rid of... And I felt like something (my throat) was rotting inside of me... Affected my nose, ears and head. The smell apparently came from my semi-rotting tonsils. Gross.

I guess I'm lucky that this period is when I have nothing on >_< Though it was supposed to be meant for working.

Schoolwork: Yes, gah. I'm gonna die any moment... All, and might I stress, ALL of my assignments are still untouched. UNTOUCHED!! *dies* Individual and groupwork alike.

Wish me luck. I'll need it.


Signing off... ...
Sleep