Oh, forget it.

Perhaps I should just keep to myself.

Everyone's getting on with their lives, without involving me much, and I can't seem to get myself involved either.

Perhaps, just perhaps, I should put myself into my little shell again and just do my stuff.

Signing off... ...

Happy National Day

It's now 2.23am in the morning, so it's technically national day now. So... Happy National Day :)

Anyway, I wanted to watch the National Day speech on TV for the first time this year, but the ironic thing was that I forgot about it entirely until after it had ended.

This year has been interesting in several ways. Many things have happened... Many, many things, and I have changed... A little. I have obtained quite a bit of new knowledge... Although not in school matters. I've been watching so many documentaries, reading so much more news online and getting involved in debates and discussions with friends about events such as the Parliamentary elections that was held this year.

I've also started attending more talks... A little late since I'm in my last year of school, but as they say, better late than never, right?

All in all, it's been a good year so far :) I just hope that my studies won't get affected.

It's my last semester, and I don't want to let anyone down. Including myself.

Signing off... ...

Whatever.

I personally think ignoring someone or ignoring someone's questions is not a good way of communicating in a relationship.

But... whatever.

Signing off... ...

Been heavily annoyed these few days.

Not funny sometimes

If you really understand someone, NEVER, EVER joke about something that person is serious about.

You may think it funny, but that person won't. And you cannot imagine how much you may hurt that person.

An extreme example: http://articles.exchristian.net/2003/07/rapture-joke-provokes-heart-attack.php


Signing off... ...

Where's the panic?

This can't be right........ right?

Ah, whatever.

Exam in 2 days, but I don't feel it yet. I don't feel the panic, even though I should.

What am I to do.

Signing off... ...

I wonder what will happen if I stop taking the step forward...

Addiction

I wonder if there's anything called a healthy addiction.

Signing off... ...

Pain

My head hurts... so much.

Signing off... ...

Realisations

Sometimes when realizations hit you all of a sudden, it may be very difficult... Too difficult even, to handle or accept.

Will go back to my little hole now, thanks.


Signing off... ...

Attitude

Sometimes it really is just your attitude towards things that can change the way you feel.

If something is suffocating you, just take a step back and try to look at the situation from a different angle. Leave the ditch and look at the entire landscape :) Sometimes, the ditch isn't as deep as it seems.

Signing off... ...

Nothing.

I'm just numb at the moment.

Signing off... ...

No idea what title to write

Jealousy is an ugly, green-eyed monster.

Not to mention irrational sometimes too.

Signing off... ...

The night is quiet with
No stars.

Only the New Moon hangs in the sky.


Signing off... ...

Perhaps...

Perhaps I do give too much sometimes.


Signing off... ...!

Run!

I continue to stagger forth as the approaching

Flames threaten to take me, and even as

Exhaustion consumes my body from prolonged

Running and

Sprinting

I have to persevere...

Signing off... ...

Random Rambles

I think I'm an awesomely lucky person to have met some really awesome people in my life :) And one person I may not have met/gotten to know better at all if it weren't for so many 'lucky' coincidences ^-^

*ish happy*

Anyway, I'm still adapting back to Singapore after coming back from my Sweden exchange, but it's a lot better now. I can switch to Singlish without feeling weird now, and I'm starting to have my appetite again for 'normal food'.

I just don't want to slip back into the habit of spending a lot of money when I go out with people... I'll need to find some way out of that.

Signing off... ...

Incomplete

A part of me has been left somewhere else... Till I go collect it again in June.

I'm not handling this well at all.


Signing off... ...
I'm damn screwed.

Darkness vs Light

I feel like I'm groping around in the dark right now... And it's scary...

But when the sun shines through, everything seems all right for those moments the sun touches the skin. The sweet, warm caress of the sun's rays bring about comfort and hope and joy.

But when the sun is no longer in sight, the darkness prevails.

Until the next time the sun rises.


Signing off... ...

Smoke

I'm confused as to why I'm experiencing something akin to emotional turmoil.

Signing off... ...

In a tight little knot right now.

2.5 more months...

I forsee myself tearing/crying uncontrollably when I have to fly back to Singapore in January.... =/

But I suppose I could always busy myself with thinking of what I should do when I get back and start 'preparing' for my next trip >_<


Signing off... ...

Relationships

I think that there are 3 things that are required for a mature relationship...

1) Trust

2) Maturity

3) Self-confidence

I know that I'm lacking in several areas, especially the last, and I hope that doesn't define what makes me ready for a relationship.

Signing off... ...

Am worried.